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So I went to Kosen Rufu meeting on friday & it was really cleansing and refreshing. I was so tired during it, but I was tryin to stay awake and make it through. President Ikeda says so many wonderful things. He's an adorable little man. But that's one of the things that attracted me to the religion in the first place - it's so informal and good-hearted. Everyone is real. No one is trying to put up a front like they're some kind of perfect person. Not even this amazing little man who has honorary citizenship in like 80 countries and like 1000000 doctorates. He has faults and not only admits to them, but owns them. That's how a truly successful person should probably live. I haven't chanted since Friday, but I am about to now. It's never too late, I suppose. I'm trying to chant extra this week because it's finals & I'll need to chant A) because it will calm me down and I won't be so stressed and B) I need to put out some positive energies so hopefully I'll get some back.
I ended up leaving work really early on friday and I hope no one cared too much. My supervisor left early too, so I don't think anyone would have cared but her - and she was gone anyway.
I've been hanging out with my boys a lot lately. It's really nice to see them so much. They are the sweetest people & always take care of me. Cyncyrie & I went over there after Mel's birthday party & hung out with Girly & Molly and some other old friends were over there. It's so nice to catch up. Molly got a little too hammered, and I felt really bad for her. I got a teeny little bit hammered last night but no hang overs today & i went to work & everything was pretty hunky dory.
My first final is tomorrow. I want this week to be over with so I can finally relax for a minute.
I'm trying to keep my mind occupied so that my heart doesn't have time to dwell on things. Mel's party was pretty hard but I am so thankful that everyone was trying to keep me occupied and happy, even though the day was all about Mel. It was good for me to see her with someone else. It's helping me go through the grieving process a little quicker. After all, it's best to just get it all over with as soon as possible - even if it hurts a little more. It's kind of like a band-aid. You can avoid it and wait for it to fall off on it's own, or you can grab it by the end and rip that fucker off. I'm tryin' to rip the damn thing off, but part of me still wants to keep it stuck on.
I ended up leaving work really early on friday and I hope no one cared too much. My supervisor left early too, so I don't think anyone would have cared but her - and she was gone anyway.
I've been hanging out with my boys a lot lately. It's really nice to see them so much. They are the sweetest people & always take care of me. Cyncyrie & I went over there after Mel's birthday party & hung out with Girly & Molly and some other old friends were over there. It's so nice to catch up. Molly got a little too hammered, and I felt really bad for her. I got a teeny little bit hammered last night but no hang overs today & i went to work & everything was pretty hunky dory.
My first final is tomorrow. I want this week to be over with so I can finally relax for a minute.
I'm trying to keep my mind occupied so that my heart doesn't have time to dwell on things. Mel's party was pretty hard but I am so thankful that everyone was trying to keep me occupied and happy, even though the day was all about Mel. It was good for me to see her with someone else. It's helping me go through the grieving process a little quicker. After all, it's best to just get it all over with as soon as possible - even if it hurts a little more. It's kind of like a band-aid. You can avoid it and wait for it to fall off on it's own, or you can grab it by the end and rip that fucker off. I'm tryin' to rip the damn thing off, but part of me still wants to keep it stuck on.