Some Honest Thoughts
I contemplated a lot of things on the drive from marin to santa cruz yesterday. Things are a little tough, and I don't know where I stand on anything, and have little to show for my accomplishments. Doomed? or is this a time for patience?
- I escape the first chance I get. I would rather be homeless in santa cruz than live with my brother. I don't know how to cope in the same space, and I leave.
- I second guess everything at some point
- All my life I've been told to be quiet when I say something I feel, and now I have trouble expressing myself.
- The truth is, I am deeply ashamed. I don't think I can even stomach a graduation party at this point.
- I can't decide if I want to be a self destructive loner, or a desperate friend right now.
- I need to let go....story of my life.
- Desperately need to do something rash, unexpected. like blowing some serious green on something amazing. A series of shows. Peacing to fiji for 6 months. Investments are boring. EDIT: Except tattoos....which may happen tomorrow.
- I escape the first chance I get. I would rather be homeless in santa cruz than live with my brother. I don't know how to cope in the same space, and I leave.
- I second guess everything at some point
- All my life I've been told to be quiet when I say something I feel, and now I have trouble expressing myself.
- The truth is, I am deeply ashamed. I don't think I can even stomach a graduation party at this point.
- I can't decide if I want to be a self destructive loner, or a desperate friend right now.
- I need to let go....story of my life.
- Desperately need to do something rash, unexpected. like blowing some serious green on something amazing. A series of shows. Peacing to fiji for 6 months. Investments are boring. EDIT: Except tattoos....which may happen tomorrow.