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well it's been almost 2 months since I've written or even really checked this. But today I was all emotional and I wrote a poetry and copied some old ones into my little book. And it all of a sudden made me think of lj, which I had practically forgotten about.
It kinda makes me sad that I only like my peotries when I'm in a depressing kind of mood. It's like because that's the only time I can relate to them and the only time they make sense. But that means that normal/happy people reading them would probably think they're shit. But I'm ok with that I guess because they're there when I need them and I can choose to share them or not.
I'm pmsy today. And I hate that. It's like I'm justifying a guys typical viewpoint of pms. "oh they have no control and they turn into bitches". but... "ggaaaahhhh" I honestly feel like I have no control. and that pisses me off. royally. at least I don't really act like a bitch. But I'm a lot less fun. And my mind... my mind just doesn't feel like my own. And I hate simply complaining about it because that also just makes guys think you're weak. but damnit I really feel the need to vent.
...in other news... Fall 06 semester is almost done. like almost almost. and I'm psyched. I'm a little afraid of what my grades are going to be, but I think over all it won't be too bad. I'm praying it won't be too bad. I have high hopes for my gpa that I do not want shot down again like last fall.
hopefully monday I'm going with Kimber to a thing on campus that'll teach us how to write proper resumes. and then hopefully we'll both get better jobs. I NEED a new one before the end of January because the way I scheduled my classes I won't beable to have the same exact job I have now, and that may cause issues.
I'm taking all business classes in the spring (besides Italian), and I'm kind of excited about that. I hope they're interesting. And yea... I'm taking intro to Italian because for Spring break Jeff and I are going to Italy for a week. Annie's studying abroad over there, and her vaca is the same time so we'll be with her the whole time. And we're visiting Silvia for the weekend. I'm SO SO SO excited. and I can't believe it's only 3 months away!!
It kinda makes me sad that I only like my peotries when I'm in a depressing kind of mood. It's like because that's the only time I can relate to them and the only time they make sense. But that means that normal/happy people reading them would probably think they're shit. But I'm ok with that I guess because they're there when I need them and I can choose to share them or not.
I'm pmsy today. And I hate that. It's like I'm justifying a guys typical viewpoint of pms. "oh they have no control and they turn into bitches". but... "ggaaaahhhh" I honestly feel like I have no control. and that pisses me off. royally. at least I don't really act like a bitch. But I'm a lot less fun. And my mind... my mind just doesn't feel like my own. And I hate simply complaining about it because that also just makes guys think you're weak. but damnit I really feel the need to vent.
...in other news... Fall 06 semester is almost done. like almost almost. and I'm psyched. I'm a little afraid of what my grades are going to be, but I think over all it won't be too bad. I'm praying it won't be too bad. I have high hopes for my gpa that I do not want shot down again like last fall.
hopefully monday I'm going with Kimber to a thing on campus that'll teach us how to write proper resumes. and then hopefully we'll both get better jobs. I NEED a new one before the end of January because the way I scheduled my classes I won't beable to have the same exact job I have now, and that may cause issues.
I'm taking all business classes in the spring (besides Italian), and I'm kind of excited about that. I hope they're interesting. And yea... I'm taking intro to Italian because for Spring break Jeff and I are going to Italy for a week. Annie's studying abroad over there, and her vaca is the same time so we'll be with her the whole time. And we're visiting Silvia for the weekend. I'm SO SO SO excited. and I can't believe it's only 3 months away!!