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This is the worst Ive ever been. I feel horrible and confused. I need to stop dwelling on the past. The past is what is killing me the most right now. I dont know what I want with anything. I need to calm down for awhile. I need to figure myself out before I let anyone else. I need to do all of these things, but Im not sure where to start. I need to keep my head up, and tell myself that this will only make me stronger. But all I really wanna do is go crawl up in my bed with my best friend and talk.
The fact that theres only 3 1/2 days of school this week is great, also the fact that theotd is wednesday. But being with my ENTIRE family on Thanksgiving wont be too much fun. Their all assholes who think they have the right to talk shit about me for no reason.
A cigarette and more than 8 hours of sleep sounds so good right now, but neither of those things are happening tonight. Im out of smokes and its almost 6 in the morning. This night cant get much better.
You wanted more than you could have, we both wanted more.