imaloser.
im sick soo of course that makes everthing worse. im in this crazy mood today, my parents are out of town so im actually at home today. all ive been doing is sitting around by myself which i thought was gonna be amazing but it sucks real bad. maybe if i had some weed it would have been completely opposite and id just be cleaning my room or something. but instead i just lay around thinking and feeling shitty. and anyone that cares is either working, outa state or outa the county. i feel like im being selfish or something but i dunno. today is my day off and im doing nothing prbly because i have no friends haha, seriously. but its my fault, soooo. i wish i wasnt an addict and all my friends werent alcholics soo we could all just chill and be NORMAL. but i know that would never happen. ever. haha and its funny cuz if i didnt have a bf <3...id prbly have 0 friends. haha. wow. thats awsome. welll maybe the people i work with but whoohooo. i hate all of them too. well most of them. eww i hate when i write like this. but thats basically what i use LJ for a place to vent when i feel shitty and the only people that read this are basically the only people that would know when im feeling shitty anyways. hopefully things turn around and ill feel better, i prbly feel shitty to cuz its turning into winter and just that makes me want to cry :[...im not ready for the snow and being cold alll the time. maybe ill learn how to stay warm in the snow this winter :] maybe but...prbly not. but i am going to build a igloo in cristinas back yard cuz her back yard is sweet. haha. at least thats something i can look forward to doing other then that its gonna be the same damn things im sure. unless someting CRAZY happens...ok im out <3liz