Can't sleep!
Yeah. Can't sleep.
I'm not so sure that i want to though. I've been having such bad dreams.
You know? Like the ones that you keep having and then you feel like it's gonna happen and then you'll feel like crap for a long time.
What the fuck am i saying? yea 2 am and im sitting on my computer because i'm afraid to sleep? Ok i just confused myself there.
Oh tonight was great though! i got to see all these people i hadnt seen in months and then it made me wonder why i don't see these people anymore?
I look back and i ask myself if i do this often? Do i distance myself from people or is it the situations i get into?
I feel like i've made so many mistakes in life...wait not really mistakes more like chances i didn't take when i had the chance and even if i didnt have the chance at that time i still look back and regret not acting on instinct? ugh i hope im not the only one that feels like this.
example:
i regret not getting my permit sooner because now i have to wait till july, YES JULY, in order to drive. i mean i hate having to depend on my mother to pick me up(shes always late). Tonight i called her at 11:30 and ask her to pick me up and she said "give me 30 minutes." so i did then i called again and she said "give me 10 minutes" then on the 3rd call she says "o ok im on my way" by 12:30 i decided that she forgot about me (it is possible) so i call her again and once more she says "give me 10 minutes" to make the long story short...she got to shayna's house at 1:15. How messed up is that?
I don't want to live life being scared of what could happen if i take a chance or don't because now i see that you've gotta live life to the fullest no matter how stupid you may feel after you do something insane you should feel happy you did it because if not you will go through life thinkin
"i wonder what would have happened?"
so now im gonna sleep or at least try
and when you think that i've just done something insane you shouldnt be laughin at me you should be laughin with me because of how much fun it was
(Hey its 2am what did you expect from me?)
I'm not so sure that i want to though. I've been having such bad dreams.
You know? Like the ones that you keep having and then you feel like it's gonna happen and then you'll feel like crap for a long time.
What the fuck am i saying? yea 2 am and im sitting on my computer because i'm afraid to sleep? Ok i just confused myself there.
Oh tonight was great though! i got to see all these people i hadnt seen in months and then it made me wonder why i don't see these people anymore?
I look back and i ask myself if i do this often? Do i distance myself from people or is it the situations i get into?
I feel like i've made so many mistakes in life...wait not really mistakes more like chances i didn't take when i had the chance and even if i didnt have the chance at that time i still look back and regret not acting on instinct? ugh i hope im not the only one that feels like this.
example:
i regret not getting my permit sooner because now i have to wait till july, YES JULY, in order to drive. i mean i hate having to depend on my mother to pick me up(shes always late). Tonight i called her at 11:30 and ask her to pick me up and she said "give me 30 minutes." so i did then i called again and she said "give me 10 minutes" then on the 3rd call she says "o ok im on my way" by 12:30 i decided that she forgot about me (it is possible) so i call her again and once more she says "give me 10 minutes" to make the long story short...she got to shayna's house at 1:15. How messed up is that?
I don't want to live life being scared of what could happen if i take a chance or don't because now i see that you've gotta live life to the fullest no matter how stupid you may feel after you do something insane you should feel happy you did it because if not you will go through life thinkin
"i wonder what would have happened?"
so now im gonna sleep or at least try
and when you think that i've just done something insane you shouldnt be laughin at me you should be laughin with me because of how much fun it was
(Hey its 2am what did you expect from me?)