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so i have been talking my mess for about two and a half months about this car. my new car. the '02 coupe. i mean i would go on and on and on and on about it.
me: oh my gawd...did you know i had a whatever-disc in dash cd changer...i mean i don't need it, but i never had it before....so it's like xmas. oh wow. I HAVE REMOTE KEYLESS ENTRY...KEYLESS EVERYTHING!! i mean i don't need it, but i never had it before...so i'm using it all the time. golly. i never had power windows or even a sunroof before....so i always, i mean ALWAYS ride with my windows down...and with sunroof....excuse me, the moonroof open. did i mention that i have a whatever-disc in dash cd player. i mean i don't need it or nothing.
friends: yes, yes we know. we are so happy for you.
me: i mean, i love this car..
friends: yes, yes we know. we are so happy for you.
i mean it was almost ridiculous. too goo too be true. all this about a car. i know. but i really, really liked it. it's so funny though. i wondered when something would happen to me or it. i mean come on. my whole summer was basically crappy, as a matter fact... as soon as i stepped off the plane coming back from korea. my life has been a mess. crying crying crying....no money no money no money. just all in all....one big mess. so i finally thought i got everything together when i got the job at the bank. but that was pure hell. everyone talked about everyone. no sense of teamwork, and the worst customers imaginable. geez people. we're dealing with money here. the rules are for you safety.
and every month...something happened where i had to spend any inkling of savings i had on some huge expense that came up. so i was broke every month.
then the dream job. quit the bank. and i FINALLY got the job at UT. after sending about one hundred resumes. checking my email religiously to see if there was any word. i got the call from lesley to set up an interview. although interview was very shaky. I GOT THAT JOB!!
and that was it. i was set. i was still working at musashino...still am. so i thought everything was going to be great. and then the car started acting up. it started in the summer, but kind of went away....but then it got worse. decided....that's frikkin it....traded in the car...put in the worst down payment you can think of...might as well put a quarter down for the down payment. took me three days to finalize the car...b/c i went thru hell with the finance people. but i got it. great apr...great everything. the best car ever. decided not to get the gap insurance....b/c i knew my insurance....the greatest geico...covered everything.
and i finally thought that was the last time that i had the bad luck. i could finally save. i could finally be comfortable. then it was jackie's birthday. i was running like two minutes late....and those minutes count when the morning traffic start...but i decided to wish jackie a happy birthday anyways. i run down to my car. the traffic is sooooooo weird. coming to complete stops...and it was still early. unorthodox for that time. and i am driving crazy. i think to myself i need to relax and concentrate on my driving. i already had to slam on my brakes. i got into the fast lane which was completely the opposite. decided to change lanes. checked my blind spot. but i think i checked too long. i wish i relied on my mirrors more...b/c boom. i couldn't turn my head yet. i wouldn't. i just thought. was that me? what happened. i turned around. and the camry is driving off to the side of the road. a montero sport went to the side of road to make sure she was okay. but i was still in the middle of the road. just staring. thinking. was that me? all of a sudden the sun came out. broad daylight. and i am still in shock.
my brand new car. my very first accident ever. and it was all my fault. I AM A GOOD DRIVER DAMMIT! i finally move my car to the side of the road. and i still sit there. call lesley. get out.
asked her if she was okay. apologized over and over. and just stared at our cars. looking back and forth. didn't cry yet. and the selfish me think. oh no...my brand new car. what happened. we finally get all our information. but i still think that this a dream. a really bad dream.
i go home....luckily we didn't wait for the cops, or i would have gotten a ticket. call lesley again. she didn't get my message yet...so i tell her about the whole thing....forgetting to hold my tongue, and i was f* this and f* that. i was so angry at myself. this just proves my point. from my nov. 13th entry..and holy shit....
and i quote "haha. i am so clumsy that way, and this kind of sets the pace for the rest of my life. everything i get, i ruin. it's a little disconcerting." it's like....foreshadowing. i am just waiting for my camera to be smashed in. i don't know why my luck is like that.
and to top it all off. MY INSURANCE ISN'T COVERING THE RENTAL CAR. i swear four years ago when i got my windshield replaced i got a rental. i remember b/c i got a durango which wasn't comparable to my car....so we drove it all over bryan/college station. and for this COLLISION! i get jack shit. so now i am kicking myself in the ass for not getting the stupid gap insurance that would have covered the rental. the one that the second finance guy was begging me to have b/c it was important...b/c it really was for my benefit...but the only word i knew when it came to that....NO! but who knew.
thanks to everyone that tried to make me feel better about this...thanks for not cracking jokes....yet. and thanks for trying ...and i said trying...to make me feel like i am not this unlucky fool. and i know. i should feel lucky. my first accident was minor. but my parents were with geico for over twenty years....clean record. until me. i ruined it. i know i know. i am ok...that's all that matters.
it's just all a little ironic...that's all. it all started with my bike.
me: oh my gawd...did you know i had a whatever-disc in dash cd changer...i mean i don't need it, but i never had it before....so it's like xmas. oh wow. I HAVE REMOTE KEYLESS ENTRY...KEYLESS EVERYTHING!! i mean i don't need it, but i never had it before...so i'm using it all the time. golly. i never had power windows or even a sunroof before....so i always, i mean ALWAYS ride with my windows down...and with sunroof....excuse me, the moonroof open. did i mention that i have a whatever-disc in dash cd player. i mean i don't need it or nothing.
friends: yes, yes we know. we are so happy for you.
me: i mean, i love this car..
friends: yes, yes we know. we are so happy for you.
i mean it was almost ridiculous. too goo too be true. all this about a car. i know. but i really, really liked it. it's so funny though. i wondered when something would happen to me or it. i mean come on. my whole summer was basically crappy, as a matter fact... as soon as i stepped off the plane coming back from korea. my life has been a mess. crying crying crying....no money no money no money. just all in all....one big mess. so i finally thought i got everything together when i got the job at the bank. but that was pure hell. everyone talked about everyone. no sense of teamwork, and the worst customers imaginable. geez people. we're dealing with money here. the rules are for you safety.
and every month...something happened where i had to spend any inkling of savings i had on some huge expense that came up. so i was broke every month.
then the dream job. quit the bank. and i FINALLY got the job at UT. after sending about one hundred resumes. checking my email religiously to see if there was any word. i got the call from lesley to set up an interview. although interview was very shaky. I GOT THAT JOB!!
and that was it. i was set. i was still working at musashino...still am. so i thought everything was going to be great. and then the car started acting up. it started in the summer, but kind of went away....but then it got worse. decided....that's frikkin it....traded in the car...put in the worst down payment you can think of...might as well put a quarter down for the down payment. took me three days to finalize the car...b/c i went thru hell with the finance people. but i got it. great apr...great everything. the best car ever. decided not to get the gap insurance....b/c i knew my insurance....the greatest geico...covered everything.
and i finally thought that was the last time that i had the bad luck. i could finally save. i could finally be comfortable. then it was jackie's birthday. i was running like two minutes late....and those minutes count when the morning traffic start...but i decided to wish jackie a happy birthday anyways. i run down to my car. the traffic is sooooooo weird. coming to complete stops...and it was still early. unorthodox for that time. and i am driving crazy. i think to myself i need to relax and concentrate on my driving. i already had to slam on my brakes. i got into the fast lane which was completely the opposite. decided to change lanes. checked my blind spot. but i think i checked too long. i wish i relied on my mirrors more...b/c boom. i couldn't turn my head yet. i wouldn't. i just thought. was that me? what happened. i turned around. and the camry is driving off to the side of the road. a montero sport went to the side of road to make sure she was okay. but i was still in the middle of the road. just staring. thinking. was that me? all of a sudden the sun came out. broad daylight. and i am still in shock.
my brand new car. my very first accident ever. and it was all my fault. I AM A GOOD DRIVER DAMMIT! i finally move my car to the side of the road. and i still sit there. call lesley. get out.
asked her if she was okay. apologized over and over. and just stared at our cars. looking back and forth. didn't cry yet. and the selfish me think. oh no...my brand new car. what happened. we finally get all our information. but i still think that this a dream. a really bad dream.
i go home....luckily we didn't wait for the cops, or i would have gotten a ticket. call lesley again. she didn't get my message yet...so i tell her about the whole thing....forgetting to hold my tongue, and i was f* this and f* that. i was so angry at myself. this just proves my point. from my nov. 13th entry..and holy shit....
and i quote "haha. i am so clumsy that way, and this kind of sets the pace for the rest of my life. everything i get, i ruin. it's a little disconcerting." it's like....foreshadowing. i am just waiting for my camera to be smashed in. i don't know why my luck is like that.
and to top it all off. MY INSURANCE ISN'T COVERING THE RENTAL CAR. i swear four years ago when i got my windshield replaced i got a rental. i remember b/c i got a durango which wasn't comparable to my car....so we drove it all over bryan/college station. and for this COLLISION! i get jack shit. so now i am kicking myself in the ass for not getting the stupid gap insurance that would have covered the rental. the one that the second finance guy was begging me to have b/c it was important...b/c it really was for my benefit...but the only word i knew when it came to that....NO! but who knew.
thanks to everyone that tried to make me feel better about this...thanks for not cracking jokes....yet. and thanks for trying ...and i said trying...to make me feel like i am not this unlucky fool. and i know. i should feel lucky. my first accident was minor. but my parents were with geico for over twenty years....clean record. until me. i ruined it. i know i know. i am ok...that's all that matters.
it's just all a little ironic...that's all. it all started with my bike.