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I feel like I'm drowning right now. I have an anxiety disorder, depression, Fibromialga and CFIDS. I'm taking too many classes and I haven't gotten the work done. I worry constantly, people say I need to stop and just be a teenager, a child, that I shouldn't worry, that worrying is for the adults. That makes me worry even more. We don't have enough money, my mom has a ticket that needs to be payed but we don't have the money so she could get a warrant. It wasn't even her fault!!! She pulled into the carpool lane to avoid an accident, she's had three failed back surgeries, an accident would kill her! They might turn our electric off, we haven't had that happen since I was little. We don't have enough money for anything right now and I'm sixteen, I can legally get a job but with my health problems.... I feel helpless.
My mom's having a mental break down. It's been coming for years, she had a lot of bad stuff happen to her when she was a kid that she's never talked about. She's always been dealing with me and my younger brother(Can't say little since he's 6'3") who has Bi-Polar. My anxiety issues that resurfaced about a month ago aren't helping. I don't know what to do. I'm wondering what we did to make God punish us, why everything has to happen now. It's confusing and nothings getting better. My mom's last priority with doctors because she's suicidal, the last thing she's gonna do is kill herself, I think she's goes into a panic attack just thinking of leaving us here without her.
I don't know what to do, I don't have anyone to talk to. I've always talked with my mom but right now I can't, she's been crying and close to hyperventilating and I don't know what to do to make her feel better. I don't know what to do, damnit, I don't know what to do!!!
My mom's having a mental break down. It's been coming for years, she had a lot of bad stuff happen to her when she was a kid that she's never talked about. She's always been dealing with me and my younger brother(Can't say little since he's 6'3") who has Bi-Polar. My anxiety issues that resurfaced about a month ago aren't helping. I don't know what to do. I'm wondering what we did to make God punish us, why everything has to happen now. It's confusing and nothings getting better. My mom's last priority with doctors because she's suicidal, the last thing she's gonna do is kill herself, I think she's goes into a panic attack just thinking of leaving us here without her.
I don't know what to do, I don't have anyone to talk to. I've always talked with my mom but right now I can't, she's been crying and close to hyperventilating and I don't know what to do to make her feel better. I don't know what to do, damnit, I don't know what to do!!!