(no subject)
I haven't written in quite some time and I think that it has helped me to discover that I need to write in order to be completely healthy. This journal was conceived from the frustrations of an unrequited crush... and I guess it will continue to be there for me:
So there is this boy. And he notices me but not more than as a friend. And not yet as a great friend. So most of the time I feel pretty helpless/hopeless at this point. Right now I am trying to get him to take me to a concert, but I don't know if that is going to happen or even change anything. I am so sick of being stuck in this rut.
I almost told him last night. But that would have been a seriously bad idea (just see how it worked out the last time I did that) and if I am anything, I am always rational. And I hate it.
It is so hard to have him as a neighbor... extremely distracting. And the feeling that the passage of time is to my disadvantage is awful... I can't help but think that it is only a matter of time before he finds a girl that he likes. Crap, I have it bad. He's been hanging out with one of my girl-friends here and it is making me extremely jealous which I don't like.
Well, I don't know if any of the above expellations made any sense but maybe it will help me to feel better. I guess I just don't know what to do. And I hate that.
So there is this boy. And he notices me but not more than as a friend. And not yet as a great friend. So most of the time I feel pretty helpless/hopeless at this point. Right now I am trying to get him to take me to a concert, but I don't know if that is going to happen or even change anything. I am so sick of being stuck in this rut.
I almost told him last night. But that would have been a seriously bad idea (just see how it worked out the last time I did that) and if I am anything, I am always rational. And I hate it.
It is so hard to have him as a neighbor... extremely distracting. And the feeling that the passage of time is to my disadvantage is awful... I can't help but think that it is only a matter of time before he finds a girl that he likes. Crap, I have it bad. He's been hanging out with one of my girl-friends here and it is making me extremely jealous which I don't like.
Well, I don't know if any of the above expellations made any sense but maybe it will help me to feel better. I guess I just don't know what to do. And I hate that.