Happy New Year!
I can't believe it's almost 2005, I still base everything on it being 2000! A lot of stuff happened in 2004... I personally think I did a lot of growing up this year.:::cue bulleted list of stuff I did this year::::
- I stage managed Fuddy Meers
- Went to my senior prom
- GRADUATED FROM HIGH SCHOOL
- Saw the sunrise virtually every single day this summer
- TURNED 18!!
- Jumped out of an airplane
- Started College
- Moved 3000 miles away from home for college
- Survived my first semester of college... 3000 miles away from home
- Rutgers gymnastics
- adjusted to college
hmmm that makes it seem like I didnt do that much, but really I think I did. I know there is more important things I didnt mention. I feel like I have become so much stronger in the past year. A year ago I would barely drive on the freeway and today not only will I drive on the freeway, I can take an airplane alone to new jersey, get on buses, and trains and find my way back to Rutgers, all by myself. I feel very independant and strong...
a lot of good things happened this year, and a lot of not so good things happened this year. I made some incredible friendships throughout the year... I also feel like I've lost a lot of frienships. My priorities change every year and usually my friends change every year too...
I really hope that 2005 brings a little bit more stability in my relationships with people. I don't want the friendships I have created to go away,or change... I know they will though, they always do. I just want to know people I can count on. I want 2005 to be fun, I want to have a good time and I want to be proud of myself.
On another note.. I can't wait to get back to Rutgers, I miss it a lot.. I miss my friends there. I have such a better time there, even when I am not doing anything, I dunno... I'm still bummed that i'm not good enough to have been invited back... I wish gymnastics came easier to me ... I feel like I work hard and I want it badly enough... not so sure what I am doing wrong, I screwed up any chances I had back in september, I dunno... I always have to prove myself, my whole life I have never worked hard enough according to most people, I just don't know. I have the heart and the motivation when I am there, yet no one see's it... or atleast the important people don't. :::sigh:::: I suppose keep doing what I am doing and we'll see. Maybe in 2005 gymnastics will suddenly come to me better... hahah wishful thinking.
Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!! any Rutgers people that read this, I miss you.
here I am 2005... lets get is started!!
- I stage managed Fuddy Meers
- Went to my senior prom
- GRADUATED FROM HIGH SCHOOL
- Saw the sunrise virtually every single day this summer
- TURNED 18!!
- Jumped out of an airplane
- Started College
- Moved 3000 miles away from home for college
- Survived my first semester of college... 3000 miles away from home
- Rutgers gymnastics
- adjusted to college
hmmm that makes it seem like I didnt do that much, but really I think I did. I know there is more important things I didnt mention. I feel like I have become so much stronger in the past year. A year ago I would barely drive on the freeway and today not only will I drive on the freeway, I can take an airplane alone to new jersey, get on buses, and trains and find my way back to Rutgers, all by myself. I feel very independant and strong...
a lot of good things happened this year, and a lot of not so good things happened this year. I made some incredible friendships throughout the year... I also feel like I've lost a lot of frienships. My priorities change every year and usually my friends change every year too...
I really hope that 2005 brings a little bit more stability in my relationships with people. I don't want the friendships I have created to go away,or change... I know they will though, they always do. I just want to know people I can count on. I want 2005 to be fun, I want to have a good time and I want to be proud of myself.
On another note.. I can't wait to get back to Rutgers, I miss it a lot.. I miss my friends there. I have such a better time there, even when I am not doing anything, I dunno... I'm still bummed that i'm not good enough to have been invited back... I wish gymnastics came easier to me ... I feel like I work hard and I want it badly enough... not so sure what I am doing wrong, I screwed up any chances I had back in september, I dunno... I always have to prove myself, my whole life I have never worked hard enough according to most people, I just don't know. I have the heart and the motivation when I am there, yet no one see's it... or atleast the important people don't. :::sigh:::: I suppose keep doing what I am doing and we'll see. Maybe in 2005 gymnastics will suddenly come to me better... hahah wishful thinking.
Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!! any Rutgers people that read this, I miss you.
here I am 2005... lets get is started!!