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the end of the summer went by in a blur really. i didn't have as much time or money at the end of it, so i never did one last road trip, but i'd say overall it was a pretty decent summer. at the end i helped my lil sis paint her room. move in went alright; glad it's over. i love, love the new place. I was a little distant the last week of summer. I'm always a bit nervous before the new school year starts, and I was just bugged by home matters. My Dad is basically not keeping his blood sugar low and he has diabetes. It's affecting his brain which makes him act kinda crazy, which is partly why his ocd-ish keeping stuff has gotten a lot worse in recent years. I also think the whole gas station feud contributed too. It makes me really angry and sad because I can't control it. I think that's the most I've ever said about that. I tend to not write about super emotional things on lj cuz I know it's public.
summer reflections:
i did do a decent amount of weekend excursions. the job had some shitty downsides of waking up early and having to make up time you missed. my coworkers were pretty cool though. i don't know if i'll hang out w/ them after the job or not...i really hope we do, but i really don't know...i'm kinda bad at making new good close friends; i've become good at aquaintances, but anyway, i hope we do go out drinking a few more times. i've had the best time at the bars in madison w/ my work coworkers cuz we would always dance and everyone's up for kareoke and whatever really.
Beginning of year highlights:
I hung out w/ Tim Friday night at his brother's house--my first time seeing him in over a year since he was Ecuador!! It was great to see him, and I'm glad I had just as much fun hanging out with him as before he left. His brother works at Ginza of Tokyo, so we had some awesome sushi for dinner. I sent out an email about a Guat taco dinner, so hopefully I can catch up with all my guats.
Saturday was pretty low-key. Worked at Jimmy Johns; thinking of downloading some Nick Lachey after a fun excurstion on almost buying yoga mats w/ my fly hunnies, hahahah.
Went over to Eric and Jake's place. It was actually a bit stifling cuz it was all couples and everyone was relaxed cuz they had gone to the football game earlier and I hadn't. I never want to give up doing things...I have this repulsion I guess of not going outside and exploring or like being a middle aged person who is too out of shape to play soccer w/ their kids or just gave up their crazy dreams of bunjy jumping and crap.
Anyway, then I went over to Justin's house. I really am lucky to have him. It's not perfect, and I'm glad it's not cuz it's not supposed to be. But we get along so well and I pretty much tell him everything and he puts up with my emotions and even my Springsteen music. But yeah, I love him. I decided I may as well just put everything into this entry, haha.
This should be a pretty busy semester. I'm taking 3 labs and working in most of my free time during the day. I hate hw though. I hate always feeling behind and that I have to get stuff done. I love school, but I will look forward to the day my free time doesn't have to be occupied by homework. I hate how time and money seem to rule the world. I'm taking vegetation of wisconsin, animal physiology, ecology, some scandinavian english class, and yoga. Working at Jimmy John's, Meriter Hospital as an office person, and a Sunday gig watching kids during church. The church actually intrigues me. It's seem very liberal, and I think I should investigate since I really dislike some things about the Catholic Church.
I don't know why, but I feel I haven't felt my usual optimism lately. Maybe it's nervousness coming back, but I don't know I also haven't been working out either lately. Or maybe I'm just scared cuz I graduate in a year or so and things will change. Who knows, I shall work on this. I've learned I'm pretty emotional and sensitive, so emotions tend to rule me a bit.
Anyway, as usual I usually type out some goals for the upcoming time period, so here it is for this semester:
--have a kickass room
--run in the mornings
--host some get-togethers and work on keeping in touch with people
--work on resume boosters, such as volunteering
--be more relaxed
I think I've decided to shelve study abroad for this year. I'm in a year-long lease already, so I would be out a lot of $$ unless I found a subletter. It's also the last time all my friends in my grade will be at Madison. I think my plan is to save 1 necessary class and attempt to get into fall study abroad and graduate there. I suppose if this doesn't work I'll just finish over summer or something and then do SCA. I feel like I can't not do some sort of last big travel thing. I know it will take a lot of money, but I look at my files and I have freakin' folders on travel stuff. I already have gone to Guatemala and New Zealand, but I want a longer experience, like several months instead of 1. I've decided to try for Costa Rica because they don't sit in classrooms there--a lot is outside. I can sit in classrooms in America, so I think I'd rather have that type of experience. Plus, the classes are in English, hehe. I hope this works out, but if I don't get in or whatever SCA (Student Conservation Association) is my backup plan because even if I do study abroad I will probably still do this. I want to work in a national park for them. I just think I need a year of random stuff before going on to grad school and career things because I don't want to look back and regret not doing it.
Anyway, actually that paragraph makes me feel much more relaxed now that I have set plans in word.
I suppose I should go do more homework. I feel much better now that I've lj-ed. I haven't been doing that regularly, and I prolly should start it again. It makes me feel so much better to sort everything out in writing. I think I express myself best in writing. Anyway, I feel much better now. Writing is also sort of a relief too.
summer reflections:
i did do a decent amount of weekend excursions. the job had some shitty downsides of waking up early and having to make up time you missed. my coworkers were pretty cool though. i don't know if i'll hang out w/ them after the job or not...i really hope we do, but i really don't know...i'm kinda bad at making new good close friends; i've become good at aquaintances, but anyway, i hope we do go out drinking a few more times. i've had the best time at the bars in madison w/ my work coworkers cuz we would always dance and everyone's up for kareoke and whatever really.
Beginning of year highlights:
I hung out w/ Tim Friday night at his brother's house--my first time seeing him in over a year since he was Ecuador!! It was great to see him, and I'm glad I had just as much fun hanging out with him as before he left. His brother works at Ginza of Tokyo, so we had some awesome sushi for dinner. I sent out an email about a Guat taco dinner, so hopefully I can catch up with all my guats.
Saturday was pretty low-key. Worked at Jimmy Johns; thinking of downloading some Nick Lachey after a fun excurstion on almost buying yoga mats w/ my fly hunnies, hahahah.
Went over to Eric and Jake's place. It was actually a bit stifling cuz it was all couples and everyone was relaxed cuz they had gone to the football game earlier and I hadn't. I never want to give up doing things...I have this repulsion I guess of not going outside and exploring or like being a middle aged person who is too out of shape to play soccer w/ their kids or just gave up their crazy dreams of bunjy jumping and crap.
Anyway, then I went over to Justin's house. I really am lucky to have him. It's not perfect, and I'm glad it's not cuz it's not supposed to be. But we get along so well and I pretty much tell him everything and he puts up with my emotions and even my Springsteen music. But yeah, I love him. I decided I may as well just put everything into this entry, haha.
This should be a pretty busy semester. I'm taking 3 labs and working in most of my free time during the day. I hate hw though. I hate always feeling behind and that I have to get stuff done. I love school, but I will look forward to the day my free time doesn't have to be occupied by homework. I hate how time and money seem to rule the world. I'm taking vegetation of wisconsin, animal physiology, ecology, some scandinavian english class, and yoga. Working at Jimmy John's, Meriter Hospital as an office person, and a Sunday gig watching kids during church. The church actually intrigues me. It's seem very liberal, and I think I should investigate since I really dislike some things about the Catholic Church.
I don't know why, but I feel I haven't felt my usual optimism lately. Maybe it's nervousness coming back, but I don't know I also haven't been working out either lately. Or maybe I'm just scared cuz I graduate in a year or so and things will change. Who knows, I shall work on this. I've learned I'm pretty emotional and sensitive, so emotions tend to rule me a bit.
Anyway, as usual I usually type out some goals for the upcoming time period, so here it is for this semester:
--have a kickass room
--run in the mornings
--host some get-togethers and work on keeping in touch with people
--work on resume boosters, such as volunteering
--be more relaxed
I think I've decided to shelve study abroad for this year. I'm in a year-long lease already, so I would be out a lot of $$ unless I found a subletter. It's also the last time all my friends in my grade will be at Madison. I think my plan is to save 1 necessary class and attempt to get into fall study abroad and graduate there. I suppose if this doesn't work I'll just finish over summer or something and then do SCA. I feel like I can't not do some sort of last big travel thing. I know it will take a lot of money, but I look at my files and I have freakin' folders on travel stuff. I already have gone to Guatemala and New Zealand, but I want a longer experience, like several months instead of 1. I've decided to try for Costa Rica because they don't sit in classrooms there--a lot is outside. I can sit in classrooms in America, so I think I'd rather have that type of experience. Plus, the classes are in English, hehe. I hope this works out, but if I don't get in or whatever SCA (Student Conservation Association) is my backup plan because even if I do study abroad I will probably still do this. I want to work in a national park for them. I just think I need a year of random stuff before going on to grad school and career things because I don't want to look back and regret not doing it.
Anyway, actually that paragraph makes me feel much more relaxed now that I have set plans in word.
I suppose I should go do more homework. I feel much better now that I've lj-ed. I haven't been doing that regularly, and I prolly should start it again. It makes me feel so much better to sort everything out in writing. I think I express myself best in writing. Anyway, I feel much better now. Writing is also sort of a relief too.