I just don't know
I really don't know how to even express how I feel lately. I know some of you have noticed that I have been pretty down lately. I just don't know how to describe how I feel or what is really bugging me. I think I know, and the people that actually understand what I am saying have really tried keeping me sane about the whole situation, and for that I am very appreciative. School is not bad at all. I am enjoyin myself, and it is sooo much work, more work than I thought it was going to be, but you know what, I am dealing, and I am staying on top of things, and trying really hard. I am frustrated with some classes, but that is to be expected. Work though seems to be a key problem to why I feel the way I do. I don't know if it is just that im growing out of it, and I need a break or a change, or if I am just fed up with all the shit that happens. Maybe I am just realizing the people that I once thought I needed, I guess I really don't. I been getting by with basically no one around here. Yeah I have my boys that I hang out with every weekend, but it is not like we talk about what is bothering me or anything. I really don't talk to that many people about anything that means anything, so maybe I am ok on my own. I really just want to graduate and get the hell out of here. Maybe people somewhere else will appreciate havin me around, because the people around here certainly don't seem to give a shit, and I understand that we are all busy, but is it that hard to check in once in awhile. Apparently so, but I dunno, obviouslly there is a lot on my mind, and being exhausted isn't helping the situation, so I apologize for being such a downer lately, but until I can figure out what is bothering me and some how make myself happier, than I will be as down as I want.