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Ok...so I haven't really updated in awhile. I've just been so busy and my mind was all over the place. But in a way it was a good thing that my mind was all over the place. I didn't have much time to think a ton of things through but now that I have the time to think things through, I don't think that I really want to. Thinking things through can get to be a pain. It just brings up the past...and just how frustrated you can be because of the whole past. But I am glad to finally say that talking about a certain past doesn't really get to me anymore. I don't think it has for awhile. It just brings up a strong dislike of the person that the past was about. And it also brings up the fact that I won't ever let that person or any other person, for that matter, treat me the way that that certain person did. I've grown up a bit I think. Even though I do have some more growing up to do, I know that I will eventually need to grow up completely and face the reality of most things.
I think that I must realize that not all friendships will last forever, even if you want these friendships to last. I also think that I need to realize that even though you try to give an old friendship another chance that that might not really work out in the end either. You see I think I've come to realize that a lot of people have changed from the people that we once knew and that you have to accept it at some point or another. I also think that it's better to try and realize this before you try and get your hopes up about a friendship that might not work out in the end.
I've come to the conclusion that I think it's time that I give up on a certain friendship and let things go. Because I feel that letting go of this friendship is the only thing that I can do. I've put too much time and effort into this friendship and constantly (well mostly) get back nothing in return. I really don't think that's a good friendship or a friendship that I would like to keep because it's a really draining sort of thing. I'm just sick of being drained if that makes sense. I just want to give up because it's taking too much energy to let this friendship sort of hang up in the air and I just can't do that anymore.
I plan on either being brave and just going to this friend and being like our friendship is over unless you tell me otherwise. Or taking the coward's way out and calling, possibly leaving a voice mail saying that our friendship is done and if this said person wants this friendship than they need to prove it to me, not just saying it to me. Than another coward's way would be to write and note and leave this said note somewhere that this person will find it and read it. So I plan to do this soon. I think I might just have to make it my New Year's Resolution after I make one more attempt to keep this friendship going by calling this said person on New Year's. Well I guess I'll end up seeing how it turns out in the end.
Anyway if I don't write more before the New Year. I hope everyone has a great New Year's and is with the people that they love. (well at least the family that they love)
"Here With Me" By Dido
I didn't hear you leave,
I wonder how am I still here
I don't want to move a thing,
It might change my memory
Oh I am what I am,
I'll do what I want, but I can't hide
I won't go, I won't sleep,
I can't breathe, until you're resting here with me
I won't leave, I can't hide,
I cannot be, until you're resting here with me
I don't want to call my friends,
They might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed,
Risk forgetting all that's been
Oh I am what I am,
I'll do what I want, but I can't hide
I won't go, I won't sleep,
I can't breathe, until you're resting here with me
I won't leave, I can't hide,
I cannot be, until you're resting here with me
I think that I must realize that not all friendships will last forever, even if you want these friendships to last. I also think that I need to realize that even though you try to give an old friendship another chance that that might not really work out in the end either. You see I think I've come to realize that a lot of people have changed from the people that we once knew and that you have to accept it at some point or another. I also think that it's better to try and realize this before you try and get your hopes up about a friendship that might not work out in the end.
I've come to the conclusion that I think it's time that I give up on a certain friendship and let things go. Because I feel that letting go of this friendship is the only thing that I can do. I've put too much time and effort into this friendship and constantly (well mostly) get back nothing in return. I really don't think that's a good friendship or a friendship that I would like to keep because it's a really draining sort of thing. I'm just sick of being drained if that makes sense. I just want to give up because it's taking too much energy to let this friendship sort of hang up in the air and I just can't do that anymore.
I plan on either being brave and just going to this friend and being like our friendship is over unless you tell me otherwise. Or taking the coward's way out and calling, possibly leaving a voice mail saying that our friendship is done and if this said person wants this friendship than they need to prove it to me, not just saying it to me. Than another coward's way would be to write and note and leave this said note somewhere that this person will find it and read it. So I plan to do this soon. I think I might just have to make it my New Year's Resolution after I make one more attempt to keep this friendship going by calling this said person on New Year's. Well I guess I'll end up seeing how it turns out in the end.
Anyway if I don't write more before the New Year. I hope everyone has a great New Year's and is with the people that they love. (well at least the family that they love)
"Here With Me" By Dido
I didn't hear you leave,
I wonder how am I still here
I don't want to move a thing,
It might change my memory
Oh I am what I am,
I'll do what I want, but I can't hide
I won't go, I won't sleep,
I can't breathe, until you're resting here with me
I won't leave, I can't hide,
I cannot be, until you're resting here with me
I don't want to call my friends,
They might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed,
Risk forgetting all that's been
Oh I am what I am,
I'll do what I want, but I can't hide
I won't go, I won't sleep,
I can't breathe, until you're resting here with me
I won't leave, I can't hide,
I cannot be, until you're resting here with me