sea vents

[lizalovely]

this last weekend
was probably the most exhausting i have ever been through.
my little sister has graduated.
i am so happy for her.
with all of the problems we have had in the last few years.
i feel like we are making strides to understand each other better than ever before.
she is truly a beautiful and sweet soul, and we all have our down falls
but i really feel that she has made some great progress.
i love her so much.

so i am finally out of that relationship
and even though it hurts - i really think it is for the better
i tend to forget my self-worth when something like this happens
that i am forgettable , or not worth attention
i don't know why it keeps happening
Am i to independent that i never see it coming?
because i feel like this last go around was something more than a ordinary relationship
i really thought it was going to last for a life time.
but when i couldn't see him next to me on the isle
i knew something was wrong-
that he wouldn't be going to bars frequently if everything was okay.
so it wasn't and that was that.

i know God has a bigger plan for my life
and i feel blessed by all of the friends in my life that have been there for me in the last two weeks.
i just need to focus on what i want my life to be.