New Hampshire makes me depressed and I always manage to forget that
Bailed on Kyle on Friday, as per usual, and sat around talking with my Dad about the American slave trade for hours. Don't even know how that happened. My mom fell asleep listening to us.
Today I spend the whole day at my sister's new apartment. She's so excited and it was so good to help her move in and remember what it was like when I moved away. It's forced me to think about being an adult, as well, as now this is an empty house to come home to. It's a bit strange- she's totally self-sufficient, graduated, and has an internship and a job. I'm still dependent and won't be out of school for at least two more years. It's working for me, though. Or so I tell myself.
I think I've decided to go to McGill next year. Not totally. Never written it down before, or spoken it aloud. We'll see.
Saw Amazing Grace with my parents which was awful except for the last half hour. Made my Dad cry hysterically which is always bizarre. Greg died a year ago today and amazing grace was his favorite song. He would have loved that movie. It was nice to chat with them afterwards, even managed to talk about Ben without crying.
I feel like I'm having such a difficult time it's ridiculous. This piece of advice from Rachel helped quite a bit, actually, even if it is completely silly and only designed to give me temporary comfort.
"not all that much i can say about ben except that you are too clever for him anyway and that these things take time
probably best to avoid dating and eat lots of ben and jerrys in front of both bridget jones diary films
xxxxx"
So it's been a successful trip home, I suppose, even though half the purpose was to catch up on the immense amount of work I'm behind on and I haven't touched a thing.
I spend too much time on the internet these days. Replacing one thing with another: never a successful strategy.
Today I spend the whole day at my sister's new apartment. She's so excited and it was so good to help her move in and remember what it was like when I moved away. It's forced me to think about being an adult, as well, as now this is an empty house to come home to. It's a bit strange- she's totally self-sufficient, graduated, and has an internship and a job. I'm still dependent and won't be out of school for at least two more years. It's working for me, though. Or so I tell myself.
I think I've decided to go to McGill next year. Not totally. Never written it down before, or spoken it aloud. We'll see.
Saw Amazing Grace with my parents which was awful except for the last half hour. Made my Dad cry hysterically which is always bizarre. Greg died a year ago today and amazing grace was his favorite song. He would have loved that movie. It was nice to chat with them afterwards, even managed to talk about Ben without crying.
I feel like I'm having such a difficult time it's ridiculous. This piece of advice from Rachel helped quite a bit, actually, even if it is completely silly and only designed to give me temporary comfort.
"not all that much i can say about ben except that you are too clever for him anyway and that these things take time
probably best to avoid dating and eat lots of ben and jerrys in front of both bridget jones diary films
xxxxx"
So it's been a successful trip home, I suppose, even though half the purpose was to catch up on the immense amount of work I'm behind on and I haven't touched a thing.
I spend too much time on the internet these days. Replacing one thing with another: never a successful strategy.