yesterday's feelings

[liz_sweet_pea]

every little comment digs away. i am "stupid" and "disappointing." everday i hear it. "don't be stupid", "work harder". failing again and again. i fear all conversation at this point. who now will i upet? where is my home? why is nothing alright? why do i feel like i am missing the big picture? running on empty now, only fury fueling my aimless pursuit of anything good-enough. FUCK all of this!
how selfish. i tremble and bawl at my problems. why am i having so many thoughts? i want happiness, right now! what is it going to fucking take

patience and trust. neither of which i have now or understand.