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lately, ive realized that this summer has been going by so fast, and ive come to new realization that im growing up even faster. its like ridiculous. im going to be graduating high school in less than 2 years, getting my permit in a few short months, getting my liscense in about a year, turning 16in january.
what happened? where did the time go?
i remember when i was in elementary school. that was like...over 5 years ago. my little brother is gonna be 15 next year, hes coming into the high school. thats so scary.
ive also been looking at colleges.
its so scary, and frightening knowing that im going to be mainly on my own.
i mean, i think about it and i definitly want to go away. but im not going to have my parents breathing down my neck. without them, idk if i would be an honor student at all to say the truth, if they didnt tell me to get on my homework or to start my summer reading project..i can tell u right now, that i wouldnt do it.
im going to disney in less than a month. im excited. but its the first time im going there where me and my brother will be able to go wherever we want. and to tell u the truth. that freedom, that ive never had before...its a little frightening.
and if im getting all worked out about this, imagine college.
im going to europe next summer with my mom for my 16th birthday, i have to get a passport. we r gonna go to italy, ireland, and england. im excited for that. except..again, its just gonna be me and my mom...its scary.
high school is supposed to be the most fun time of my life. and so far it is. but its going by. WAY too quickly.
i listened to kristin bretschers speech at graduation, and i remember her saying that once we are out of high school, we are in the real world. its not just, "oh we MIGHT get a detention" its like, serious business. believe it or not, our high school walls are a sense of security. and i really dont want to graduate. i want to go back to high scchool. like. a lot of freedom scares me i guess? ugh idk.i have to learn to make decisions and not just be a rebel, because so far, this summer, ive done several things that i really shouldnt have done, and i dont want to turn into one of those kids who thrives off of doing bad things. i mean, being a badass is all well and good. not saying its not fun. but if i keep getting into these habits, whats gonna happen in college where u can do anything and not get into trouble by ur parents?
wow. that was a very in depth entry.
what happened? where did the time go?
i remember when i was in elementary school. that was like...over 5 years ago. my little brother is gonna be 15 next year, hes coming into the high school. thats so scary.
ive also been looking at colleges.
its so scary, and frightening knowing that im going to be mainly on my own.
i mean, i think about it and i definitly want to go away. but im not going to have my parents breathing down my neck. without them, idk if i would be an honor student at all to say the truth, if they didnt tell me to get on my homework or to start my summer reading project..i can tell u right now, that i wouldnt do it.
im going to disney in less than a month. im excited. but its the first time im going there where me and my brother will be able to go wherever we want. and to tell u the truth. that freedom, that ive never had before...its a little frightening.
and if im getting all worked out about this, imagine college.
im going to europe next summer with my mom for my 16th birthday, i have to get a passport. we r gonna go to italy, ireland, and england. im excited for that. except..again, its just gonna be me and my mom...its scary.
high school is supposed to be the most fun time of my life. and so far it is. but its going by. WAY too quickly.
i listened to kristin bretschers speech at graduation, and i remember her saying that once we are out of high school, we are in the real world. its not just, "oh we MIGHT get a detention" its like, serious business. believe it or not, our high school walls are a sense of security. and i really dont want to graduate. i want to go back to high scchool. like. a lot of freedom scares me i guess? ugh idk.i have to learn to make decisions and not just be a rebel, because so far, this summer, ive done several things that i really shouldnt have done, and i dont want to turn into one of those kids who thrives off of doing bad things. i mean, being a badass is all well and good. not saying its not fun. but if i keep getting into these habits, whats gonna happen in college where u can do anything and not get into trouble by ur parents?
wow. that was a very in depth entry.