Back in Boston!!
Heeeeello everyone!! Yes, I am still alive, and...no, I didn't really drop off the face of the earth. Nope, I just had a busy, awesome, and exciting summer. I was kinda busy falling in love...which in turn didn't really leave much time for a livejournal. For once I think I may have finally been busy enough just getting out there and living my life rather than just debating things in my head and making it seem like my world was a mess. This may have been, in fact, the best summer of my life. I worked, and actually liked my job, I spent practically every other day at the beach in RI or up in NH with Dan, and spent a good deal of time with my friends. It was awesome. It was great. I wish it was still here.
But....it's not. :( So I suppose the only thing to do at this point is to move towards the future.
The past week has been pretty crazy. Actually, I lied. I take that back. The past few weeks have been really pretty crazy. Saying goodbye to Dan was honestly, one of the hardest things I've ever done. It still hurts. And, I've come to terms with the fact that this will continue to be the case. With helping him get ready to leave, and trying to get things done on my own at the same time, was pretty difficult, and strained our relationship at times. But...we got through it, and now he is off at school in NY, and I have since returned to Boston. I've been moved into my apartment for almost exactly a week now. I feel much more settled in, and like maybe I'll calm down a bit this week. It has really been a rough week since I've been back, between things with the family, feeling homesick, move in day...and having to go to class the very next day, keeping up with all my school work, and trying to make a relationship work with Dan, and somewhere in there...try and still have a life? It's been tough. And to be honest, I really haven't been handling it that well.
But at the same time, after all of this, I'm trying really hard (at least for the moment) to stay positive, and tell myself that it will get better, and that I will adjust, and everything will be fine. (Plus Dan is coming up this weekend...I am beyond excited!!!)
Maybe I've grown some since last year? Maybe everything does eventually just work itself out, and maybe I'm not as crazy as I once thought I was.
(Just on a side note...all of this positivity has NOT been evident in the past week, so I apologize to anyone I may have bitched at in the process)
But....it's not. :( So I suppose the only thing to do at this point is to move towards the future.
The past week has been pretty crazy. Actually, I lied. I take that back. The past few weeks have been really pretty crazy. Saying goodbye to Dan was honestly, one of the hardest things I've ever done. It still hurts. And, I've come to terms with the fact that this will continue to be the case. With helping him get ready to leave, and trying to get things done on my own at the same time, was pretty difficult, and strained our relationship at times. But...we got through it, and now he is off at school in NY, and I have since returned to Boston. I've been moved into my apartment for almost exactly a week now. I feel much more settled in, and like maybe I'll calm down a bit this week. It has really been a rough week since I've been back, between things with the family, feeling homesick, move in day...and having to go to class the very next day, keeping up with all my school work, and trying to make a relationship work with Dan, and somewhere in there...try and still have a life? It's been tough. And to be honest, I really haven't been handling it that well.
But at the same time, after all of this, I'm trying really hard (at least for the moment) to stay positive, and tell myself that it will get better, and that I will adjust, and everything will be fine. (Plus Dan is coming up this weekend...I am beyond excited!!!)
Maybe I've grown some since last year? Maybe everything does eventually just work itself out, and maybe I'm not as crazy as I once thought I was.
(Just on a side note...all of this positivity has NOT been evident in the past week, so I apologize to anyone I may have bitched at in the process)