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Ya cool, its Thursday! Today at lunch I chatted it up with STU!!!!
duuude I forgot how kewl Stu was.
DUDE! hahhaha I miss him.
Yeah we had an interesting convo, it looks as though we have a lot in common and share the same interests.
He might be going through that phase I was going through like a year ago, or maybe not...
either way...it’s hot.
He has grown up to be a very attractive young man. jajaja I sound all respectful...
Speaking of respectful, Mr. Dunn is getting creepy. Today he stood over my shoulder while I did my work with Marcus at a lab table and felt all...weird.
I hope he didn’t notice, so embarrassing. I believe he has good intentions, but he doesn’t know
HOW MUCH I KNOW ABOUT MEN
I mean...I know I’m kind of flirtatious and I’m always smiling and I really enjoy his physics class
and I like answering all the questions even when Marcus and I are in competition
and I ask for his advise about soldering my headphones and about those kewl toys on his desk
I always play with, but dude...Tuesday or Monday he made a comment about what I was wearing
it sounded pretty innocent but I mean the mere fact that he was checking out what I had on and
MADE A COMMENT ON IT makes me nervous.
And it also means it makes me want to get back the control so that means being an equal.
like today someone, another student called me Liz and he was like " LIZ?"
and asked me what name I prefer, and then called me Liz and I was like UM NO...
I explained how I do not like being called Liz by adults and/or teachers because its sort of an
unprofessional way to address me and I wouldn’t call him by his first name just like I wouldn’t want him calling me the same name as the kids do
because it kind of lowers the level of formality and authority and respect I have for him.
So yeah he said LIZ of course and I was like ok what your first name? How would you like if I called you by your fist name?
And therein began the power struggle #1.
I hate getting into this mode...he’s an adult he needs to remember that,
and if he’s going to speak to me in that way then I must speak to him on the same level.
I’m not gunna try to stay all formal and professional while he says my skirt and knee-highs and glasses
remind him of Velma from Scooby Doo and he says to call him Shaggy and I was like "oh so do you smoke pot Mr. Dunn?" ahahaha
AAAH I hate these situations, its so...weird normally if he wasn’t bound by law to treat me as every other student
I wouldn’t care if he commented about me in such a personal way but since I cant comment bACK, or defend myself,
since it wound be taboo as a student and as a child, I’m sort of trapped in a power struggle.
He can disrespect me in that manner while I have to sit there and take it because children/students
always have to behave and be respectful to teachers/adults.
So ridiculous.
The comment about marijuana was a step over the personal boundary on my part and I want to scare him off a bit;
I’m not sure how to go about it.
Like if I were to question about his personal life it could be a disaster but then
I could be gaining ground in
the battle over authority and sexual connotations that come with young-girl/male-teacher conversation.
Oh and another thing he excessively SAYS MY NAME A LOUD IN CLASS like
"ok everyone turn in your homework except Elizabeth because she didn’t finish it"
so that alone would give me plenty of reason to report sexual harassment. oh and did I mention today he stood over me
watching me do my work at the lab tables Marcus was sitting across from me and Mr.Dunn was like
breathing down my neck I was like moving away and put the stool between us with my leg and I was like
"ah go away I cant work with someone watching me like that" I seriously could not write I couldn’t breathe and I didn’t want to turn around.
at first I thought he was pretty far away and then I like felt him a lot closer than what people usually stand from each other
and then I thought 'ok he’s trying to hint to you that you need to stop making jokes and goofing off with Marcus and get some work done'
but then something else in my head said why is he getting closer? Why is he doing that REALLY?
I was like omg, omg pleeease don’t come any closer
sorry I was distracted by my friend matt I told him about what I just wrote here ...
Liz (7:51:48 PM): I wonder
Liz (7:51:55 PM): if I were to just like
Liz (7:51:57 PM): walk in there
Liz (7:52:01 PM): get up on that desk
Liz (7:52:13 PM): and just like dangle my legs over the edge and lean back
Liz (7:52:17 PM): and spread em
Matt (7:52:20 PM): FUUUUUUCK
Liz (7:52:21 PM): see what he does
Matt (7:52:28 PM): he’s all
Matt (7:52:29 PM): "uhhhh"
Liz (7:52:41 PM): AAAH
Liz (7:52:48 PM): like with bubble gum
Liz (7:52:52 PM): pig tails schoolgirl socks
Liz (7:52:56 PM): and like
Matt (7:52:59 PM): omg
Liz (7:53:03 PM): pink make up
Liz (7:53:09 PM): pink nail polish
Liz (7:53:12 PM): duuuude
Liz (7:53:16 PM): I'm sooo doin' it
Matt (7:53:18 PM): bubble gum fa sho!!!
Matt (7:53:24 PM): do it with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Liz (7:53:27 PM): hahahha
Liz (7:53:55 PM): go get a teachers certification and work at a school for a few years
Matt (7:55:03 PM): fer suuure
I know I'm smarter then most girls my age that’s why I know something brewing but what to do
I don’t know because I still feel trapped by the restrictions of being a child/girl/student
Matt (7:37:31 PM): but you prolly don’t feel that uncomfortable
Liz (7:37:37 PM): IM the one who having bad thoughts
Liz (7:37:48 PM): like I interpret what he says as sexual and then I defend myself
Liz (7:37:59 PM): and its like why am I defending myself
Liz (7:38:02 PM): nothing bad is going on
Matt (7:38:02 PM): yah I see
Matt (7:38:09 PM): so you are in control
Liz (7:38:17 PM): I try to be
Matt (7:38:18 PM): he’s just giving you the opportunity
Liz (7:38:22 PM): aaah
Liz (7:38:26 PM): what does that meaaan?
Matt (7:38:31 PM): he’s all sly slippin' dirrty thought in your head
Liz (7:38:36 PM): ew
Matt (7:38:37 PM): so you can go for it
Liz (7:38:38 PM): dude
Liz (7:38:40 PM): you think so?
Matt (7:38:42 PM): he’s a guy
Matt (7:38:45 PM): I know
Liz (7:38:48 PM): no
Matt (7:38:49 PM): but friends first
Liz (7:38:50 PM): I mean
Liz (7:38:52 PM): teachers
Liz (7:38:57 PM): are supposed to have
Liz (7:38:58 PM): this
Liz (7:39:01 PM): like
Liz (7:39:03 PM): TOLERENCE
Liz (7:39:06 PM): and like
Matt (7:39:06 PM): like you know you guys are prolly closer than everyone
Matt (7:39:12 PM): but he welcomes it
Matt (7:39:17 PM): and you excepted it
Liz (7:39:45 PM): like I have this thought that like one day ill end up alone with him
Liz (7:39:53 PM): and ill end up telling him about my life
Liz (7:40:02 PM): and what’s my life? sex sex sex men sex sex sex
Liz (7:40:13 PM): and then I don't know how hell react
Liz (7:40:18 PM): if he wants to know about MEEE
Liz (7:40:22 PM): its gunna be dangerous
Liz (7:40:28 PM): I’m like sex vixen school girl
Liz (7:40:43 PM): with dorky glasses and pig tails
So yeah, i don't know what exactly to do here. Probably nothing. I'm so paranoid about the rules at school
since I know the school has the authority to send me to jail or tell my parents and thats probably a lot worse
since my father is almost unpredictable when it comes to actions and anger...i really don't wanna drag anyone down with me either.
And i dont want my personal life reveiled to my parents. The little pieces they know is enough for them.
SHIT MY CLOTHES are gunna be all wrinkled...stupid dryer.
duuude I forgot how kewl Stu was.
DUDE! hahhaha I miss him.
Yeah we had an interesting convo, it looks as though we have a lot in common and share the same interests.
He might be going through that phase I was going through like a year ago, or maybe not...
either way...it’s hot.
He has grown up to be a very attractive young man. jajaja I sound all respectful...
Speaking of respectful, Mr. Dunn is getting creepy. Today he stood over my shoulder while I did my work with Marcus at a lab table and felt all...weird.
I hope he didn’t notice, so embarrassing. I believe he has good intentions, but he doesn’t know
HOW MUCH I KNOW ABOUT MEN
I mean...I know I’m kind of flirtatious and I’m always smiling and I really enjoy his physics class
and I like answering all the questions even when Marcus and I are in competition
and I ask for his advise about soldering my headphones and about those kewl toys on his desk
I always play with, but dude...Tuesday or Monday he made a comment about what I was wearing
it sounded pretty innocent but I mean the mere fact that he was checking out what I had on and
MADE A COMMENT ON IT makes me nervous.
And it also means it makes me want to get back the control so that means being an equal.
like today someone, another student called me Liz and he was like " LIZ?"
and asked me what name I prefer, and then called me Liz and I was like UM NO...
I explained how I do not like being called Liz by adults and/or teachers because its sort of an
unprofessional way to address me and I wouldn’t call him by his first name just like I wouldn’t want him calling me the same name as the kids do
because it kind of lowers the level of formality and authority and respect I have for him.
So yeah he said LIZ of course and I was like ok what your first name? How would you like if I called you by your fist name?
And therein began the power struggle #1.
I hate getting into this mode...he’s an adult he needs to remember that,
and if he’s going to speak to me in that way then I must speak to him on the same level.
I’m not gunna try to stay all formal and professional while he says my skirt and knee-highs and glasses
remind him of Velma from Scooby Doo and he says to call him Shaggy and I was like "oh so do you smoke pot Mr. Dunn?" ahahaha
AAAH I hate these situations, its so...weird normally if he wasn’t bound by law to treat me as every other student
I wouldn’t care if he commented about me in such a personal way but since I cant comment bACK, or defend myself,
since it wound be taboo as a student and as a child, I’m sort of trapped in a power struggle.
He can disrespect me in that manner while I have to sit there and take it because children/students
always have to behave and be respectful to teachers/adults.
So ridiculous.
The comment about marijuana was a step over the personal boundary on my part and I want to scare him off a bit;
I’m not sure how to go about it.
Like if I were to question about his personal life it could be a disaster but then
I could be gaining ground in
the battle over authority and sexual connotations that come with young-girl/male-teacher conversation.
Oh and another thing he excessively SAYS MY NAME A LOUD IN CLASS like
"ok everyone turn in your homework except Elizabeth because she didn’t finish it"
so that alone would give me plenty of reason to report sexual harassment. oh and did I mention today he stood over me
watching me do my work at the lab tables Marcus was sitting across from me and Mr.Dunn was like
breathing down my neck I was like moving away and put the stool between us with my leg and I was like
"ah go away I cant work with someone watching me like that" I seriously could not write I couldn’t breathe and I didn’t want to turn around.
at first I thought he was pretty far away and then I like felt him a lot closer than what people usually stand from each other
and then I thought 'ok he’s trying to hint to you that you need to stop making jokes and goofing off with Marcus and get some work done'
but then something else in my head said why is he getting closer? Why is he doing that REALLY?
I was like omg, omg pleeease don’t come any closer
sorry I was distracted by my friend matt I told him about what I just wrote here ...
Liz (7:51:48 PM): I wonder
Liz (7:51:55 PM): if I were to just like
Liz (7:51:57 PM): walk in there
Liz (7:52:01 PM): get up on that desk
Liz (7:52:13 PM): and just like dangle my legs over the edge and lean back
Liz (7:52:17 PM): and spread em
Matt (7:52:20 PM): FUUUUUUCK
Liz (7:52:21 PM): see what he does
Matt (7:52:28 PM): he’s all
Matt (7:52:29 PM): "uhhhh"
Liz (7:52:41 PM): AAAH
Liz (7:52:48 PM): like with bubble gum
Liz (7:52:52 PM): pig tails schoolgirl socks
Liz (7:52:56 PM): and like
Matt (7:52:59 PM): omg
Liz (7:53:03 PM): pink make up
Liz (7:53:09 PM): pink nail polish
Liz (7:53:12 PM): duuuude
Liz (7:53:16 PM): I'm sooo doin' it
Matt (7:53:18 PM): bubble gum fa sho!!!
Matt (7:53:24 PM): do it with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Liz (7:53:27 PM): hahahha
Liz (7:53:55 PM): go get a teachers certification and work at a school for a few years
Matt (7:55:03 PM): fer suuure
I know I'm smarter then most girls my age that’s why I know something brewing but what to do
I don’t know because I still feel trapped by the restrictions of being a child/girl/student
Matt (7:37:31 PM): but you prolly don’t feel that uncomfortable
Liz (7:37:37 PM): IM the one who having bad thoughts
Liz (7:37:48 PM): like I interpret what he says as sexual and then I defend myself
Liz (7:37:59 PM): and its like why am I defending myself
Liz (7:38:02 PM): nothing bad is going on
Matt (7:38:02 PM): yah I see
Matt (7:38:09 PM): so you are in control
Liz (7:38:17 PM): I try to be
Matt (7:38:18 PM): he’s just giving you the opportunity
Liz (7:38:22 PM): aaah
Liz (7:38:26 PM): what does that meaaan?
Matt (7:38:31 PM): he’s all sly slippin' dirrty thought in your head
Liz (7:38:36 PM): ew
Matt (7:38:37 PM): so you can go for it
Liz (7:38:38 PM): dude
Liz (7:38:40 PM): you think so?
Matt (7:38:42 PM): he’s a guy
Matt (7:38:45 PM): I know
Liz (7:38:48 PM): no
Matt (7:38:49 PM): but friends first
Liz (7:38:50 PM): I mean
Liz (7:38:52 PM): teachers
Liz (7:38:57 PM): are supposed to have
Liz (7:38:58 PM): this
Liz (7:39:01 PM): like
Liz (7:39:03 PM): TOLERENCE
Liz (7:39:06 PM): and like
Matt (7:39:06 PM): like you know you guys are prolly closer than everyone
Matt (7:39:12 PM): but he welcomes it
Matt (7:39:17 PM): and you excepted it
Liz (7:39:45 PM): like I have this thought that like one day ill end up alone with him
Liz (7:39:53 PM): and ill end up telling him about my life
Liz (7:40:02 PM): and what’s my life? sex sex sex men sex sex sex
Liz (7:40:13 PM): and then I don't know how hell react
Liz (7:40:18 PM): if he wants to know about MEEE
Liz (7:40:22 PM): its gunna be dangerous
Liz (7:40:28 PM): I’m like sex vixen school girl
Liz (7:40:43 PM): with dorky glasses and pig tails
So yeah, i don't know what exactly to do here. Probably nothing. I'm so paranoid about the rules at school
since I know the school has the authority to send me to jail or tell my parents and thats probably a lot worse
since my father is almost unpredictable when it comes to actions and anger...i really don't wanna drag anyone down with me either.
And i dont want my personal life reveiled to my parents. The little pieces they know is enough for them.
SHIT MY CLOTHES are gunna be all wrinkled...stupid dryer.