no more me.
fuck you i hate you all.
i need some drugs. right now.
i hate you.
this is the 3rd day in a row we make plans and he breaks them or lies or forgets or just laughs.
i hate him
im trying really hard to be nice to them. all of them.
i hate them all everyone of them. they all hurt me so badly. my health and my mind.
most of all i hate who they made me. i hate who i am. i hate how i act. i hate how i feel. i feel like what i hate. i cant eat i sleep too much. i feel nausiated all the time. i hate sitting in class next to one of them. everythign is ruined because i have changed so much i cannot relearn things or start again everything is just gone to shit and cannot be reversed.
more and more i feel like the odd one out. the one whos mean to get ahead, the one who lies and cheats.
no, ive alwasy lied and cheated. always.
lied to my family.
lied to my family.
lied to my family.
they say thats what hurts the most and i can tell. when robert stops speaking to me. hes so good at hurting me he doesnt even know. there are two people who know me like that. two people i love so much but hurt so bad. im sure ive made them feel this helpless on countless occations and i wanna say
im sorry i made you worry and wait on me and care so hard and work and take time aside just to help me and slow your worlds down to fix mine. im sorry i have to subject you to this same shit i feel.
im sorry i make you frustrated. im sorry i distract you from your day. im sorry i enter your thoughts. im sorry i exist in you. you two have so much to do and so many wonderful things to see, and i take away from you i waste you away every second im in your mind or your presence i take things from you.
you may says its your duty or you want to. but i dont want you to.
i dont want you to anymore. no more worrying about me.
no more me.
i need some drugs. right now.
i hate you.
this is the 3rd day in a row we make plans and he breaks them or lies or forgets or just laughs.
i hate him
im trying really hard to be nice to them. all of them.
i hate them all everyone of them. they all hurt me so badly. my health and my mind.
most of all i hate who they made me. i hate who i am. i hate how i act. i hate how i feel. i feel like what i hate. i cant eat i sleep too much. i feel nausiated all the time. i hate sitting in class next to one of them. everythign is ruined because i have changed so much i cannot relearn things or start again everything is just gone to shit and cannot be reversed.
more and more i feel like the odd one out. the one whos mean to get ahead, the one who lies and cheats.
no, ive alwasy lied and cheated. always.
lied to my family.
lied to my family.
lied to my family.
they say thats what hurts the most and i can tell. when robert stops speaking to me. hes so good at hurting me he doesnt even know. there are two people who know me like that. two people i love so much but hurt so bad. im sure ive made them feel this helpless on countless occations and i wanna say
im sorry i made you worry and wait on me and care so hard and work and take time aside just to help me and slow your worlds down to fix mine. im sorry i have to subject you to this same shit i feel.
im sorry i make you frustrated. im sorry i distract you from your day. im sorry i enter your thoughts. im sorry i exist in you. you two have so much to do and so many wonderful things to see, and i take away from you i waste you away every second im in your mind or your presence i take things from you.
you may says its your duty or you want to. but i dont want you to.
i dont want you to anymore. no more worrying about me.
no more me.