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I'm an idiot. I hate myself. I hope I die. I think I am dying. Mental breakdowns...lies...hurt...loneliness...tragedy...hopelessness...just horrible things. I thought I hated everything before. It's nothing compared to what I am feeling now. It's just horribly numbing but very painful and gut wrenching pain and embarrassment and dissappointment. I absolutely despise everything and everyone. I cannot handle any more pain without snapping. I've already snapped. I don't care about anything anymore. I hate the holiday season too. I refuse to celebrate. I don't have anything to celebrate. Fuck off...I'm not even kidding.