return to the real world...
phew.. am Exhausted! finally had a break on Tuesday after working straight through from 10 days before... finally did my income tax last night... finally found some space on my table, and then started giving tuition again tonight...
lately... I've been feeling so angry...there's not much sense to my rambling.. so just let me be...
why isn't there a better solution, did anyone consider the consequences, who's going to bear the burden of re-building the country, the stupid stupid fucking stupid 'friendly fire' - just because it's common doesn't make it acceptable, the asshole saddam, the plight of the iraqis - death & suffering comes either way... i'm all for taking out saddam, but what happens in the void that appears? recently, it was afghanistan, now it's iraq... what about north korea. i'm more worried about north korea. the situation there is desperate and I reckon they are mad enough to use their nuclear weapons. and what about the hunt for osama. are we just changing villains here? of course they are all related but is this really the best way. it is still an invasion even when you're taking out the villains. is there no other solution? the big rush so that the weather will be on your side?.. or at least not such a huge factor? i feel anguished for those people whose family died in accidents and 'friendly fire'. for all the technology there is, mistakes like these still happen... the war's become a big joke. people firing at each other not knowing for sure if they are friend or foe. ridiculous. this just speaks of the facelessness of war. you don't even know who you're attacking... just blindly going in on the orders of those higher in command.
i think the war just guarantees that more terrorists will be produced. i think of myself as an outsider in this war even if it affects me in ways i can't even begin to imagine.. yet.. i feel so fed-up, frustrated, and angry.. imagine those who are caught up in this. stir in the false information they've grown up with. the suffering, uncertainty of their lives. it scares me. the media... the power they hold. they realise it and it's become part of the military strategy to win the propaganda war thus the embedded reporters.... i understand the reporters are supposed to be safer travelling with these military units.. but are they really? maybe. still journalists and photographers have gone down and it's only been a week. it's surreal to see those green-stained blobs moving around on your tv screen...
I'm normally not a fan of Freud since I consider him a misogynistic idiot - but he said: "... in small matters trust the mind, in large ones the heart." I reckon war falls into the category of large matters no? but then again it is an emotional response that's moving it along too... sigh. I want it to end. No more lives.
this whole situation also reminds me of what is said to be the goal for cancerians: 'To see the hellish discord of life. To see the cauldron within. And, against all odds, against all common sense, to love, trust, and accept all that existence offers.'
I actually believe that I will get there...
lately... I've been feeling so angry...there's not much sense to my rambling.. so just let me be...
why isn't there a better solution, did anyone consider the consequences, who's going to bear the burden of re-building the country, the stupid stupid fucking stupid 'friendly fire' - just because it's common doesn't make it acceptable, the asshole saddam, the plight of the iraqis - death & suffering comes either way... i'm all for taking out saddam, but what happens in the void that appears? recently, it was afghanistan, now it's iraq... what about north korea. i'm more worried about north korea. the situation there is desperate and I reckon they are mad enough to use their nuclear weapons. and what about the hunt for osama. are we just changing villains here? of course they are all related but is this really the best way. it is still an invasion even when you're taking out the villains. is there no other solution? the big rush so that the weather will be on your side?.. or at least not such a huge factor? i feel anguished for those people whose family died in accidents and 'friendly fire'. for all the technology there is, mistakes like these still happen... the war's become a big joke. people firing at each other not knowing for sure if they are friend or foe. ridiculous. this just speaks of the facelessness of war. you don't even know who you're attacking... just blindly going in on the orders of those higher in command.
i think the war just guarantees that more terrorists will be produced. i think of myself as an outsider in this war even if it affects me in ways i can't even begin to imagine.. yet.. i feel so fed-up, frustrated, and angry.. imagine those who are caught up in this. stir in the false information they've grown up with. the suffering, uncertainty of their lives. it scares me. the media... the power they hold. they realise it and it's become part of the military strategy to win the propaganda war thus the embedded reporters.... i understand the reporters are supposed to be safer travelling with these military units.. but are they really? maybe. still journalists and photographers have gone down and it's only been a week. it's surreal to see those green-stained blobs moving around on your tv screen...
I'm normally not a fan of Freud since I consider him a misogynistic idiot - but he said: "... in small matters trust the mind, in large ones the heart." I reckon war falls into the category of large matters no? but then again it is an emotional response that's moving it along too... sigh. I want it to end. No more lives.
this whole situation also reminds me of what is said to be the goal for cancerians: 'To see the hellish discord of life. To see the cauldron within. And, against all odds, against all common sense, to love, trust, and accept all that existence offers.'
I actually believe that I will get there...