drips and draps
it amuses/worries me that astropup frequently gives me advice that he culled from television programmes like Star Trek and Charmed. and insists that there must be some truth to it cos they did their research. HMM.
suddenly am hit by a wave of sleepiness. dun think i can stay awake enjoy my new magazines. or my books (murakami!!! yeah).
couldn't sleep and woke up at 5.30 am this morning. lay in bed thinking about what astropup said about not liking all these creative types anymore. there must be something mis-wired in me, making me mistake creativity for emotional strength. i worked out that maybe what i'm looking for is someone who is strong enough to keep me together when i'm falling apart - which is rarely. i guess i'm looking for the opposite of a suicidal person. most of the time, people rely on me to be their emotional crutch. it's exhausting. only in recent years and with my closest friends it's truly a mutual support thing. but the fault lies within too. just as with a fortress, you can be kept out as easily as you are trapped inside. haiz. an incoherent half-asleep ramble. what am i going on about. ... ...
i love my new phone. nokia 8250. yum. our silly metro producer went to get a sony ericsson without consulting the two of us who've been complaining day in day out about our useless sony ericssons. tsk tsk.
... sleep beckons ...
suddenly am hit by a wave of sleepiness. dun think i can stay awake enjoy my new magazines. or my books (murakami!!! yeah).
couldn't sleep and woke up at 5.30 am this morning. lay in bed thinking about what astropup said about not liking all these creative types anymore. there must be something mis-wired in me, making me mistake creativity for emotional strength. i worked out that maybe what i'm looking for is someone who is strong enough to keep me together when i'm falling apart - which is rarely. i guess i'm looking for the opposite of a suicidal person. most of the time, people rely on me to be their emotional crutch. it's exhausting. only in recent years and with my closest friends it's truly a mutual support thing. but the fault lies within too. just as with a fortress, you can be kept out as easily as you are trapped inside. haiz. an incoherent half-asleep ramble. what am i going on about. ... ...
i love my new phone. nokia 8250. yum. our silly metro producer went to get a sony ericsson without consulting the two of us who've been complaining day in day out about our useless sony ericssons. tsk tsk.
... sleep beckons ...