Lost
Today I have lost all my will, I feel as if I don't really matter. Today at this place, I heard the song "True Colors" I was tearing because I felt soo unbeautiful and unimportant at the time. Of course I did not let anyone know this because that would have just ruined the whole moment. I have been struggling lately, I always feel left out and alone, people make plans and dont ever think to invite me to hang with them. I try to invite people to do things, but they never have time. People are always soo busy. Even my family is too busy, even to sit and talk for a couple of moments. My mother forgot to pick up my sister after school today and ran late, of course when my mother got to the school my sister was no where to be found and I GOT BLAMED FOR THIS!!! It was not my fault, I had no control over my sister its more like she controls me, she just overpowers me into letting her have her way. Why? Because I am too soft to say no, I always want people to be happy and even if it hurts me I WILL make them happy. Its not healthy but I do it. If you don't have plans for Friday night and would like to hang I will be where I always am, by myself in my room. Call my home or leave me a message on here. This Saturday and Sunday I have Relay For Life....maybe things will be a bit better by then, Right now I am sinking deeper and really need someone to reach out and rescue me from myself, Please don't let me get me!!! I don't want to be alone... I just need someone to show that they care cause I am missing it all right now. PLEASE CALL ME OR LEAVE ME A MESSAGE!!! I need it badly....more than anyone could possibly know.