happy turkey day....not...
ok well lest see..my mom got my ass out of bed at like 6:30 cuz we had to leave by like 8 and we had to get ready and shit..and i was up like all night...ive had alot on my mind cuz i talked to chris last night...and well yea im not gonna get to into that on here...ill prolly put it on my greatestjournal...so if you wanna read it and your special enough then ill give you my name on there cuz i jsut started it today...neways...umm...today was ok i guess...4 hours down there cuz of traffic and shit and then 3 hours back but it was all good cuz i got to see chelsea and nate and everyone else...nate could tell i was in a shitty mood so he took me and chelase and we smoked a bowl together...and now i feel like shit cuz i told lauren that iwasnt gonna smoke cuz i was her "sponcer" and now i think shes mad at me and im fired from that job...so yea...today just sucked ass...cuz i mean ive had alot on my mind and well yea..the shit that my mom did didnt help at all...when i got up shes waz bitchin at me to wear something that was "preppy" so that i look like im part of the "kids" in the family...cuz they all shop at like american eagle and shit like that preppy shit and i dont and so she couldnt find nething that she wanted me to wear so jus just threw me a pair of jeans and my freedom ride shirt and told me to wear that cuz it was all she liked cuz it didnt make me look fat and all that shti cuz all my cuzins are thin and shit..she was gettin onto me about my weight too...and well yea...she just was not helping at all...and like the whole day she was commin up to me to remind me not to show ne signs that im not the perfect child that she tells them i am and im just sick of her being so ashamed of me...i dunno shes just pissing me off along wiht like everything else thats been goin on...and i mean im worried about a number of my frineds and its just like i feel like im getting further and further apart from everyone i know...like im becomming a loner or something...w/e i dunno im gonna go to sleep i think thats what i need is ALOT of sleep cuz i havent gotten much cuz of all the shit on my mind..ill ttyl...
~grapes
~grapes