Whoa
What a fucked up week.. talk about being stressed.. damn... with all the shitty news i was recieving i was about ready to snap.. fucked up..news with charly..crazy.. i've never known anyone with cancer.. it doesn't really run in my family so i never had any family memebers who were unfortunate enough to come down with it.. poor charly.. but i know she is strong enough to get through it.. ontop of that i get news about my uncle being in the hospital with a collapsed lung.. not to serious but serious enough to make you think about death.. and what if he dies..i consider joey one of my major 4. ( 4 people whose unexpected or surprising deaths would probally cripple me for the rest of my life)Mom,(of course) Dad (cant lose my 2nd half) Nikki, (Loving sister) and Joey ( 2nd father, dad's twin.. when i was younger.. use to call him daddy sometimes.) Because growing up with my dad in the navy.. he acted like a daddy.. he's just an overall good person.. im proud to say i am a livingston because he is part of our name... thank you god that he pulled through the surgery without incident..He should be fine now.. as long as he doesn't take up smokin again.. im hoping this gives my dad motivation to quit smokin... he says on his bday he will quit.. thats monday.. we'll see.. my mom.. will be smokin even after she is dead.. worries me... but i want her to be happy...if that makes her happy and relaxed.. then thats fine with me..maybe one day Nikki will stop smoking too.... jeez.. someone answer why i am not a smoker? amazing..too bad i am an alcoholic.. lol... not really though.. if i wanted to stop drinkin on the weekends.. i could.. not a big deal.. i dunno.. just fucked up right now.. probally will be for a while..realized something.. never is there a day when you cant worry about something.. there will always be something..it's a wonderful life though. wouldn't trade it away for anything.