yeap.
It's funny how a song so depressing can actually make me feel so much better. I've basically been turning on my itunes first thing in the morning in hopes to lift my spirits, usually without much luck of changing my mood.
This past week has been absolutely dreadful. You'd think the week when I go up to Portsmouth to celebrate Ashley's birthday, spend the day at Water Country with my sister, see Radiohead, and finally decide to move-in with my boy friend would be a good thing - but no. There is a much bigger issue resting on my heart right now, and I know that time is the only remedy.
My roommates and I are breaking up. On Monday we lost electricity and since then its been discovered that our house is unfit for inhabiting due to illegal wiring and our landlord is the epitome of the uncaring, hardheaded, belligerent fuck. Only week ago I was thinking about how happy I was that we were extending our lease, and now we are scrambling to make sure we aren't homeless in two weeks. I know how dramatic this sounds. My efforts to resolve the issue have brought some relief, but in the end - I still wake up feeling like shit everyday.
Maybe today will be different. It's Tax-Free weekend so hopefully retail madness will keep me too busy to think today. And after work ... well, I was thinking of driving to the Cape to see Kristen, but preparing for that now makes my head spin so I think I'd opt to stay in, possibly see Tropic Thunder, and head to the beach tomorrow instead.
Hmpf.
I just want this transition to go smoothly. I know it was bound to happen some day.
This past week has been absolutely dreadful. You'd think the week when I go up to Portsmouth to celebrate Ashley's birthday, spend the day at Water Country with my sister, see Radiohead, and finally decide to move-in with my boy friend would be a good thing - but no. There is a much bigger issue resting on my heart right now, and I know that time is the only remedy.
My roommates and I are breaking up. On Monday we lost electricity and since then its been discovered that our house is unfit for inhabiting due to illegal wiring and our landlord is the epitome of the uncaring, hardheaded, belligerent fuck. Only week ago I was thinking about how happy I was that we were extending our lease, and now we are scrambling to make sure we aren't homeless in two weeks. I know how dramatic this sounds. My efforts to resolve the issue have brought some relief, but in the end - I still wake up feeling like shit everyday.
Maybe today will be different. It's Tax-Free weekend so hopefully retail madness will keep me too busy to think today. And after work ... well, I was thinking of driving to the Cape to see Kristen, but preparing for that now makes my head spin so I think I'd opt to stay in, possibly see Tropic Thunder, and head to the beach tomorrow instead.
Hmpf.
I just want this transition to go smoothly. I know it was bound to happen some day.