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Well, it's 6:15. Me & Martha are sitting here, kinda talking... i pierced her belly button w/ a safety pin... it's crooked. but she said she likes it b/c it's no all perfect... but i was at an angel. so it looked pretty straight where i was.
I couldn't sleep for thing about jon it really sucks that i'm still thinking about him... i'm going insane... least i'm not talking it as bed as everyone thought i would... Everybody acted like i was going to die from the way Martha was telling me... i mean, of course it huts like hell, but i'm okay... well, except that i miss the hell out of him & i'm so fuckin' lonely... not to mention that i actually love him & he feels nothing...
He told Martha that he wanted some one who could love & hate (crystal) or sum shit... i'm not a lovey person... well not completely... but i dunno...
i gotta think of sumthing (besides jon)to write about... He cannot be my main focus anymore... i know who i haven't talked about in a while... my daddy... i'm looking at a picture of him... i don't think about him as much anymore... & it makes me feel guilty! i dunno, i've just been caught in my ouwn life & his memory seems to wonder to the back of my mind... & it hurts so much to miss him b/c i have no way of contacting him... i dunno, but he's enjoying his life... & i'm happy for him... well, he's trying to enjoy his life...I miss being close to my daddy... now we can't find anything to talk about when we get the chance to talk... well, yeah, this sucks... all of it... so imma stop writting... laterz!
I couldn't sleep for thing about jon it really sucks that i'm still thinking about him... i'm going insane... least i'm not talking it as bed as everyone thought i would... Everybody acted like i was going to die from the way Martha was telling me... i mean, of course it huts like hell, but i'm okay... well, except that i miss the hell out of him & i'm so fuckin' lonely... not to mention that i actually love him & he feels nothing...
He told Martha that he wanted some one who could love & hate (crystal) or sum shit... i'm not a lovey person... well not completely... but i dunno...
i gotta think of sumthing (besides jon)to write about... He cannot be my main focus anymore... i know who i haven't talked about in a while... my daddy... i'm looking at a picture of him... i don't think about him as much anymore... & it makes me feel guilty! i dunno, i've just been caught in my ouwn life & his memory seems to wonder to the back of my mind... & it hurts so much to miss him b/c i have no way of contacting him... i dunno, but he's enjoying his life... & i'm happy for him... well, he's trying to enjoy his life...I miss being close to my daddy... now we can't find anything to talk about when we get the chance to talk... well, yeah, this sucks... all of it... so imma stop writting... laterz!