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Alright, now I should have time to type the stuff from camp, and other things I'd like to get out onto this blog.. woo.
I'm going back sometime tomorrow, and taking my computer back to finish fixing the camp computers.
I had fun tonight, except that I was tired half the time - and my mind was off thinking about other things. I really hate hanging out with friends when I'm off somewhere else in my head, it just doesn't feel right.
Daniel and I went and saw the new Bourne movie, which was good - maybe if I'd seen the first one it would have made more sense to me. Oh well, interesting camera angles. The director seems to be a very creative person.
Afterwards, we went to Taco Cabana, and met up with Amanda, and ate. I talked to Aaron a little bit outside, I saw that he was standing outside the window. Kind of cool talking to people I graduated with, seeing what's up. I wonder how things will be a year from now... probably not the same "Hey!".
I'm on a record of making mistakes by the way, I've vowed to stop today. These aren't health mistakes, or like running into trees. This is more of a personal, bad decision making type mistakes. I'd like to go into it, but it doesn't seem right for me to do so.
You feeling all the optimism I've got typed so far? Maybe it's because I'm tired, and not really talking to somebody, but more of to myself. Not that many people read this anyway.
I leave for Dallas in less than a week, and I'm kind of ready for it. Only thing I'm going to hate is if I don't get to drive my car. I've waited for almost 3 months now due to procrastination from my brother. I'm 18 now, maybe if I get the money I can rent a car? Or do you have to be 21 for that? *shrugs*
I was passing out on Daniel's bed watching him play Counter-Strike. It was great watching his TV instead of looking over his shoulder. Makes me want to hook up my TV again, but I'm just going to wait until I get another new LCD monitor - should be like August 4-5th... I don't quite remember.
**I wish my phone worked right now, if you've texted me - I didn't get it, and probably won't**
I've been a sucker lately for slow songs, more of emotional songs. Yes, I do realize you already know I listen to emo a lot - but I mean, the deep down stuff. I've just been so thoughtful lately.
My mom wants me to take a job with the Deparment of Defense, and hold off on going to school for a while. I'm not sure if this is such a good idea, I'd really like to get a good education while I can remember half of the stuff from High School.
Hm, I don't think I'm going to write anymore poetry.
Not for a while, at least for the public to view, but I doubt I will write anymore period.
I think my poetry gets me in a lot of trouble with myself and others. It shows raw feelings, sometimes in plain site - and other times, jumbled up to a point nobody could really figure it out. Problem is, others don't always know how to react to it, and I guess they become scared. I hate that. I also start living by what I've written sometimes, hard for me to explain what I mean about that though. It just doesn't seem like it's valued by anybody, so is it really worth it?
I'm going to find something to do, then grab some sleep. Busy Saturday ahead of me.
I'm going back sometime tomorrow, and taking my computer back to finish fixing the camp computers.
I had fun tonight, except that I was tired half the time - and my mind was off thinking about other things. I really hate hanging out with friends when I'm off somewhere else in my head, it just doesn't feel right.
Daniel and I went and saw the new Bourne movie, which was good - maybe if I'd seen the first one it would have made more sense to me. Oh well, interesting camera angles. The director seems to be a very creative person.
Afterwards, we went to Taco Cabana, and met up with Amanda, and ate. I talked to Aaron a little bit outside, I saw that he was standing outside the window. Kind of cool talking to people I graduated with, seeing what's up. I wonder how things will be a year from now... probably not the same "Hey!".
I'm on a record of making mistakes by the way, I've vowed to stop today. These aren't health mistakes, or like running into trees. This is more of a personal, bad decision making type mistakes. I'd like to go into it, but it doesn't seem right for me to do so.
You feeling all the optimism I've got typed so far? Maybe it's because I'm tired, and not really talking to somebody, but more of to myself. Not that many people read this anyway.
I leave for Dallas in less than a week, and I'm kind of ready for it. Only thing I'm going to hate is if I don't get to drive my car. I've waited for almost 3 months now due to procrastination from my brother. I'm 18 now, maybe if I get the money I can rent a car? Or do you have to be 21 for that? *shrugs*
I was passing out on Daniel's bed watching him play Counter-Strike. It was great watching his TV instead of looking over his shoulder. Makes me want to hook up my TV again, but I'm just going to wait until I get another new LCD monitor - should be like August 4-5th... I don't quite remember.
**I wish my phone worked right now, if you've texted me - I didn't get it, and probably won't**
I've been a sucker lately for slow songs, more of emotional songs. Yes, I do realize you already know I listen to emo a lot - but I mean, the deep down stuff. I've just been so thoughtful lately.
My mom wants me to take a job with the Deparment of Defense, and hold off on going to school for a while. I'm not sure if this is such a good idea, I'd really like to get a good education while I can remember half of the stuff from High School.
Hm, I don't think I'm going to write anymore poetry.
Not for a while, at least for the public to view, but I doubt I will write anymore period.
I think my poetry gets me in a lot of trouble with myself and others. It shows raw feelings, sometimes in plain site - and other times, jumbled up to a point nobody could really figure it out. Problem is, others don't always know how to react to it, and I guess they become scared. I hate that. I also start living by what I've written sometimes, hard for me to explain what I mean about that though. It just doesn't seem like it's valued by anybody, so is it really worth it?
I'm going to find something to do, then grab some sleep. Busy Saturday ahead of me.