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Jan 22, 2009 23:19

i just got myself feeling really shitty. coz jordan was talking about school a lot today. and i know he avoids talking about which schools hes applying to, coz i get sad about MD. im completely fine with towson, and stevenson. coz theyre close. and he'll be here. but MD scares me. mostly because im ridiculous. and think the worst. and dont trust girls. i trust him though. and because im scared about the whole never seeing him deal. i just really want this to work. besides, his major would be great at stevenson. but he can do what he wants. i wont say a word.

also: talk about school made me feel like shit. because ive had so many big plans. and where am i ending up. fucking towson. fuck my life. whatever. towson is "respectable" to everyone who doesnt live 20 minutes away.

what happened to independent brooke FOR REAL. its so annoying to be so dependent on him for feeling good. this needs to change. where am i. what am i doinggg. boys got my heart. he better keep it safe. <3

i also got sick after i ate at fridays. i felt a little better. but yeah. missed out on the show with horatio. and that makes me feel like shit. =(
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