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I went all day without eating then I get home and have chocolate. I'm trying to fast but I have food in the house and some chocolate from the other day. I still have this hamburger that I cooked a few days ago and I ate some last night then purged that. I had a fleeting thought that it might make a good binge food tonight but I haven't eaten it yet. It is seasoned really well and really greesy. I took diet pills this morning and I lost 3 lbs in 2 days. I ordered ephedrine pills and they should be here maybe tommorrow. I'm going to check the mail tonight just to make sure.
I don't want to be healthy I want to be thin. Healthy means chubby to me and when I try to nurish my body I just get fatter. I don't think I need food anyway, espicially the junk I eat. Humans were not made to eat chocolate and cookies. I think my desire to purge comes from disgust my body has for all the man made crap I inflict on it and the booze and drugs of course.
I'm off the hard alcohol and coke thank God. I've been having a few beers every night. I've had only one so far and I had maybe 4 little squares of a nestle crunch bar. I don't think I will have anything more and i might just throw that hamburger away to save me from bingeing.
I don't want to be healthy I want to be thin. Healthy means chubby to me and when I try to nurish my body I just get fatter. I don't think I need food anyway, espicially the junk I eat. Humans were not made to eat chocolate and cookies. I think my desire to purge comes from disgust my body has for all the man made crap I inflict on it and the booze and drugs of course.
I'm off the hard alcohol and coke thank God. I've been having a few beers every night. I've had only one so far and I had maybe 4 little squares of a nestle crunch bar. I don't think I will have anything more and i might just throw that hamburger away to save me from bingeing.