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So I got cut from the softball team Sunday. Mix that with everything else that's going on and you get a HUGE breakdown I've discovered. But I bounced back by monday and Jamie said to go to prom with her cousin so I was pretty excited. Long story short now I'm going with Jamie's boyfriend Matt and dont ask how that worked cuz I have no idea..go figure haha. I'm still so so stressed 'cause of lack of a job and massive prom expenses coming up...not to mention it would be nice to have my own prom date but it was brought to my attention that that will never happen, so what the hell right?
So up until about a half hour ago I've been doing okay since Sunday. Lately times have been really tough and I'm not sure how much longer I can withstand everything. I feel like I've lost all meaning to everything and anything and things arent pretty. I havent cried this hard in so long and by now I should certainly be out of tears, and yet they just keep flowing.
I'm sorry for how I've been lately, I know it's not me. And that just makes it worse becasue I know I'm not there for you when you need me to be. Im an aweful person and I'm truly sorry for that. I wish I were stronger.
I honestly dont even know what to do anymore....
So up until about a half hour ago I've been doing okay since Sunday. Lately times have been really tough and I'm not sure how much longer I can withstand everything. I feel like I've lost all meaning to everything and anything and things arent pretty. I havent cried this hard in so long and by now I should certainly be out of tears, and yet they just keep flowing.
I'm sorry for how I've been lately, I know it's not me. And that just makes it worse becasue I know I'm not there for you when you need me to be. Im an aweful person and I'm truly sorry for that. I wish I were stronger.
I honestly dont even know what to do anymore....