I can never come up with a title for these....
So it seems my frinds are all stessed. I have come to the conclusion it is contagous. I hate having all this free time; free time leads to thinking which in my case is a bad thing. Where will I go to college? How will I pay for it? What is my surgeon going to say about my shoulder when I go to see him in a couple weeks? Is my mom serious about not letting me play softball? How do I balance work and school? Will I always be alone?
Still trying to put up that fake smile all the time, and wishing it could just for once be real. It seems as soon as I pull myself up, someone shoves me back down. I dont even know whats wrong and I feel like such a horrible person for not being happy. Blame it on the weather? I've been doing that for too long. How can I deal? Is this even real? I realize its my fault for being alone, I push everyone away. But how can I learn to get over my fear of trusting people and getting attached? So far nothing has worked and I am ready to explode. AHHHHHHHH.
Still trying to put up that fake smile all the time, and wishing it could just for once be real. It seems as soon as I pull myself up, someone shoves me back down. I dont even know whats wrong and I feel like such a horrible person for not being happy. Blame it on the weather? I've been doing that for too long. How can I deal? Is this even real? I realize its my fault for being alone, I push everyone away. But how can I learn to get over my fear of trusting people and getting attached? So far nothing has worked and I am ready to explode. AHHHHHHHH.