over due random rant
although i'm not exactly sure whats going on, things are actually ok for once. my soul has quieted down. my pain is mostly sleeping. i have bf that actually treats me correctly. finals are coming up for the first semester... im really nervous. i need to start studying soon. and i know that i suck at history. i've done pretty much all my homework for both classes. plus my projects. i've been having an awesome time with my friends. i found myself praying to god when things got a bit stressful and when i was truely frightened that my friend was going to go to jail. god pulled through. he has another optioin. hes a good guy dont get me wrong. i showed up to his court date in a dress. i've fallen behind in my artwork.... i didnt sleep lastnight just to try and catch up a lil. im kinda tired. but i am very awake at the same time. eggs are yummy. dont ask where that came from. damn it. now i want eggs. my back is kinda stiff from sitting with the computer on my lap for so damn long. i have a homeless kid sleeping in house. hes a good guy. my boyfriend is sleeping on the couch across from where im sitting. im having a conversation with mrs. marshall about wearing white after labor day. im not sure why. i dont even wear white. however i do own a white shirt. i think it has stuff on it though. so its ok to wear once in a while. i smoke way too much. my feet are really cold. my back still hurts. my father is pissed off because he supossedly didnt sleep much. i slept less than him. i love coffee a lil too much at times. no i did not O.D. on coffee again. although i did think about it. i had one cup. and thats it. why are my sentences so damn short. boner is so adorable when hes sleeping. did i mention that my boyfriend's nickname is boner. im really thirsty. i need a cigg. my house is very quiet. everyone is sleeping. i hate studying. i never thought i'd be nervous about school. it kinda sketches me out. oh well.