FEELINGS

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THARE ARE SOMANY THINGS I WONDER.
I WONDER WHY I DESERVE TO BE LOVED .
IWONDER WHY I HAVE AN AMAZING BOY FRIEND .
THAT I FEEL I DONT DESERVE BECOUS I HAVE MEESSED UP SO MUCH IN MY PAST.
I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY SOME BUDY MESSED UP LIKE ME HAS SO MANY WONDER FUL PEOPLE IN THARE LIFE.
I FEEL LIKE I DONT DESERVE ENY THING THAT I HAVE BUT IT SEAMS LIKE I HAVE NO CHOISE IN WHAT I DESERVE.
THE ONE THING I DONT DESERVE IN MY LIFE IS HAPPNING AND I HAVE NO CONTROLE.
MY GRAND FAUTHER IS LOOSING HIS BATTLE WITH CANCER .
I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY GOD THAKES AWAY OUR LOVED ONES AT TIMES THAT ARE SO UNFARE .
I WANT TO HIDE FROMTHE PANEFUL TOUGHT BUT I CANT THARE ISNT ENY THING I CAN DO.
I SIT ALONE OFTEN AND CRY LIKE A SMALL CHILD MORNING THE LOSS OF THARE BEST FRIEND.
MY GRAND FAUTHER WHOS MORE TO ME THANT A GRAND FAUTHER .
GRAND PA WHOS THE MAN THAT TOOK OVER WHEN MY FAUTHER COLDNT BE A DAD .
GRAND PA BECAME MY BEST FREND THE MAN I LOOKED UP TO EVEN THO WHENI DID WRONG HE LEET ME KNOW .
NO MATTER WHAT I DID EVEN THO HE MAY NOT HAVE LIKED IT HE STILL LOVED ME .