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I'm so tired of not being able to simply go to sleep, normally, like anyone else would.
Of course, I can't be normal. When I try to sleep, I start hearing things. And it automatically pops in my head that those sounds could be someone trying to break in, or someone already walking around inside the house. I have to get up out of bed to make sure that isn't what it is. If its at night, I have to turn lights on. I hate the dark.
This anxiety/paranoia/whatever you want to call it, along with my depression and avoidant personality disorder makes me hate life. A lot. I hope I can get some kind of help soon so I'll be able to like it a little more.
Of course, I can't be normal. When I try to sleep, I start hearing things. And it automatically pops in my head that those sounds could be someone trying to break in, or someone already walking around inside the house. I have to get up out of bed to make sure that isn't what it is. If its at night, I have to turn lights on. I hate the dark.
This anxiety/paranoia/whatever you want to call it, along with my depression and avoidant personality disorder makes me hate life. A lot. I hope I can get some kind of help soon so I'll be able to like it a little more.