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Title: Think Outside the Box
Authors: Rachel and Jess. x_tired_crazy_x beautfulsuicide US)
Rating: R later.
Genre: Drama, Romance, Angst
Summary: I remember when I first started of thinking of him in more than a brotherly way...The truth is I never really guessed that I was bi until one day I looked at my brother and noticed how his hair hung in his face when he slouched and how nice his ass looked when he bent down... Jazz is my girl friend...I like her a lot, but its just... I guess I don't love her like I love my brother.
One twin falls for the other. And their just oblivious to it
Disclaimer: Not real, never happened and hopefully for the twins sake never will.
THIS IS A REPOST!
AGE 17
I quietly listened to him snore sleepily, from the bed just five feet across from mine in our cramped bedroom. He moved slightly grumbling something in his deep slumber as he tossed from one side of his bed to the other... God I fell for him all to easily. I remember when I first started of thinking of in more than a brotherly way. I denied it...I hated it...Then I accepted it. In with accepting that...I had to guess I was bi.
The truth is I never really guessed that I was bi until one day I looked at my brother and noticed how his hair hung in his face when he slouched and how nice his ass looked when he bent down. How, his stomach is fat, but you can't tell if there's muscle and when he smiles he looks like he's hiding something dirty... I couldn't understand it at the time. All these new things I was feeling were weird. As fascinating as it was, I was scared shitless of what I was thinking. I love Joel. But this went beyond brotherly love. I never told him or anybody for that matter of course for obvious reason.
1. Joel would A. kill me. B. Hate me or C. Both.
2. The band wouldn't take to it too well...not that Joel would want me back.
3. If I told Joel, he wouldn't ever want to see me again so the bad would be off and I definitely don't wanna do that because it's Joel's dream to make it big. Were not signed yet, but were getting closer by the gig.
4. Joel has a girl friend.
5. I have a girl friend.
Jazz is my girl friend. I like her a lot, but its just... I guess I don't love her like I love my brother. That's weird, isn't it?
Jazz and I have been together for almost a year now and ever since I fell for Joel about 3 months ago... nothings been the same with me and her. Nothing...
We used to go on double dates with Joel and Tanya, his girl friend all the time. Now, I can't stand to go on them because seeing him and Tanya make out hurts to much. Seriously, one time I almost got up and shoved the bitch over for making out with him so I could have room to...
Anyway, I past it off by saying I thought I saw Tony and a different chick and tripped over a bucket up popcorn not paying attention. Joel gave my a weird look, but believed it none the less. All of them did and that makes me think...all of my friends are dumbarses.
It hurts to keep this secret deep inside of me. Everyday Jazz talks about taking our relationship to the next level...whatever that level maybe, I don't wanna have it be with Jazz. I just want my Joely by my side and a beer in my hand. Well, maybe not the beer part, but I want Joel.
I can't speak about how I feel with Joel and it sucks. Even if I did someway, somehow tell him, he doesn't feel the same way. And as soon as I tell him, things could never be the same and I don't want to jeopardize my relationship with him. As brothers, he have the perfect relationship. It's my sanity of my relationship with Joel and I pick...the fir- the second one. I can't risk it, I'd die if I lost Joel.
I know I'm ultra sheepish for not saying anything to Jazz and leading her along like I love and care about her. Well, I do like her and care about her, just not nearly as much as she loves and cares about me.
Joel sits up still in his slumber and fixes his pillow. I watch as he pushes if up some and lazily hits it with his fist then, literally falls back down. It's so cute when he does this. He does it a lot. I would know considering I basically watch him every night. I love watching him. I love everything about him.
I sit up in my bed my feet hit the cold ground and I sub-consciously stretch out my toes. Walking the little distance to Joel's bed I tap his shoulder lightly.
"Hmmmmwhat," he groans opening his eyes slightly.
"Joel, I had I bad dream, can I sleep with you?" I ask hoping he's to tired to comprehend how corny of an excuse this is. How this is just an excuse for me to sleep with him...be close to him... touch him...
"Benj? Uh, sure. One sec..." Joel opens his eyes a bit more and scoots a bit so I can get in. I lie down next to him pulling him so he's a bit closer to me.
"What was it about?" Joel asks turning to face me.
"Dad," I lie looking down so he can't see my eyes. "Awww..." Joel wraps his arms around me. "Don't think about him anymore, he's gone..." He pulls back a bit but doesn't like go. "I love you Benj..." he adds a closes his eyes.
"Love you too," I whisper wishing he knew how much he's killing me right now...
*******Joel's Point of View*********
I don't know what I'm suppose to do...Normally I'm the one with the Dad nightmares...
"Don't think about him, he's gone," I soothe hoping I'm calming him done. I pull back to look at him quickly. "I love you Benj..." I say closing my eyes soon after.
"Love you too," Benji tells me a few moments later staying in my arms. A riot of emotion arise sweeping me off my usual track to sleep.
Benji never says it back. Never. It's so weird, the way he's been acting lately. I catch him all the time just starring at me avidly, then when I notice he blushes looks away. Now this, him having dreams about dad. It's almost weird having him in my bed because normally it would've been me banging of his back begging for him to save me...its no secret, our sad excuse of father figure beat the living shit out of us landing me and Benji in the hospital 3 times and Sarah and Josh once each.
Those were some harsh times and I used to cry a lot. But I always had Benji there to hold me and tell me life was going to be great as soon as the bastard died...the bastard didn't die but that's to Benji he went away... 3 months ago... Ever since then, he's never been the same. At first it was just small things... ignoring at times, avoiding eye contact and always going to every party within a 10 mile radius of the house...he was basically everywhere I want and I thought I was doing something wrong...
Then, he started to avoid his girl friend Jazz. He didn't take her phone calls and always made excuses to skip dates and stuff...he still does that which sucks because I really miss double dates...except the most recent one...
We were at the movies and me and Tanya had just started making out. We were getting really into it when all of a sudden I feel her being shoved away and Benji's kinda in her place. Immediately he looks behind me and asks, "Is that Tony and...not his girl?" I gave him a look. A look that I normally only give chicks at school when there annoying me begging me to go out with them. I never imagined myself giving that look to Benj...never. Anyway, after he discovered it wasn't them he helped Tanya up saying a barely audible apology. I start making out with Tanya again when I hear Jazz in the back round asking Benji if he wanted to take their relationship to the next level...whatever that means... He told her he felt sick and left.
It was weird...but I didn't question it. Now Benji is all over me, hanging around me all the time. It's weird, its like our roles flipped in the past 3 months of something. I'm the strong one now. I kinda like it. Joel and strong in the same sentence usual never comes up. Unless I'm talking to Tanya.
I love Tanya so much. She's so beautiful and nice and cool. She's like and angel sent down from heaven to keep me happy, make up for all the shit god put me through before. I love her more than anything...well, except Benji but that's a different kind of love.
Suddenly Benji moves in my arms snuggling up closer to me... I close my eyes...
I need to go bed.
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Comments are always nice..
Authors: Rachel and Jess. x_tired_crazy_x beautfulsuicide US)
Rating: R later.
Genre: Drama, Romance, Angst
Summary: I remember when I first started of thinking of him in more than a brotherly way...The truth is I never really guessed that I was bi until one day I looked at my brother and noticed how his hair hung in his face when he slouched and how nice his ass looked when he bent down... Jazz is my girl friend...I like her a lot, but its just... I guess I don't love her like I love my brother.
One twin falls for the other. And their just oblivious to it
Disclaimer: Not real, never happened and hopefully for the twins sake never will.
THIS IS A REPOST!
AGE 17
I quietly listened to him snore sleepily, from the bed just five feet across from mine in our cramped bedroom. He moved slightly grumbling something in his deep slumber as he tossed from one side of his bed to the other... God I fell for him all to easily. I remember when I first started of thinking of in more than a brotherly way. I denied it...I hated it...Then I accepted it. In with accepting that...I had to guess I was bi.
The truth is I never really guessed that I was bi until one day I looked at my brother and noticed how his hair hung in his face when he slouched and how nice his ass looked when he bent down. How, his stomach is fat, but you can't tell if there's muscle and when he smiles he looks like he's hiding something dirty... I couldn't understand it at the time. All these new things I was feeling were weird. As fascinating as it was, I was scared shitless of what I was thinking. I love Joel. But this went beyond brotherly love. I never told him or anybody for that matter of course for obvious reason.
1. Joel would A. kill me. B. Hate me or C. Both.
2. The band wouldn't take to it too well...not that Joel would want me back.
3. If I told Joel, he wouldn't ever want to see me again so the bad would be off and I definitely don't wanna do that because it's Joel's dream to make it big. Were not signed yet, but were getting closer by the gig.
4. Joel has a girl friend.
5. I have a girl friend.
Jazz is my girl friend. I like her a lot, but its just... I guess I don't love her like I love my brother. That's weird, isn't it?
Jazz and I have been together for almost a year now and ever since I fell for Joel about 3 months ago... nothings been the same with me and her. Nothing...
We used to go on double dates with Joel and Tanya, his girl friend all the time. Now, I can't stand to go on them because seeing him and Tanya make out hurts to much. Seriously, one time I almost got up and shoved the bitch over for making out with him so I could have room to...
Anyway, I past it off by saying I thought I saw Tony and a different chick and tripped over a bucket up popcorn not paying attention. Joel gave my a weird look, but believed it none the less. All of them did and that makes me think...all of my friends are dumbarses.
It hurts to keep this secret deep inside of me. Everyday Jazz talks about taking our relationship to the next level...whatever that level maybe, I don't wanna have it be with Jazz. I just want my Joely by my side and a beer in my hand. Well, maybe not the beer part, but I want Joel.
I can't speak about how I feel with Joel and it sucks. Even if I did someway, somehow tell him, he doesn't feel the same way. And as soon as I tell him, things could never be the same and I don't want to jeopardize my relationship with him. As brothers, he have the perfect relationship. It's my sanity of my relationship with Joel and I pick...the fir- the second one. I can't risk it, I'd die if I lost Joel.
I know I'm ultra sheepish for not saying anything to Jazz and leading her along like I love and care about her. Well, I do like her and care about her, just not nearly as much as she loves and cares about me.
Joel sits up still in his slumber and fixes his pillow. I watch as he pushes if up some and lazily hits it with his fist then, literally falls back down. It's so cute when he does this. He does it a lot. I would know considering I basically watch him every night. I love watching him. I love everything about him.
I sit up in my bed my feet hit the cold ground and I sub-consciously stretch out my toes. Walking the little distance to Joel's bed I tap his shoulder lightly.
"Hmmmmwhat," he groans opening his eyes slightly.
"Joel, I had I bad dream, can I sleep with you?" I ask hoping he's to tired to comprehend how corny of an excuse this is. How this is just an excuse for me to sleep with him...be close to him... touch him...
"Benj? Uh, sure. One sec..." Joel opens his eyes a bit more and scoots a bit so I can get in. I lie down next to him pulling him so he's a bit closer to me.
"What was it about?" Joel asks turning to face me.
"Dad," I lie looking down so he can't see my eyes. "Awww..." Joel wraps his arms around me. "Don't think about him anymore, he's gone..." He pulls back a bit but doesn't like go. "I love you Benj..." he adds a closes his eyes.
"Love you too," I whisper wishing he knew how much he's killing me right now...
*******Joel's Point of View*********
I don't know what I'm suppose to do...Normally I'm the one with the Dad nightmares...
"Don't think about him, he's gone," I soothe hoping I'm calming him done. I pull back to look at him quickly. "I love you Benj..." I say closing my eyes soon after.
"Love you too," Benji tells me a few moments later staying in my arms. A riot of emotion arise sweeping me off my usual track to sleep.
Benji never says it back. Never. It's so weird, the way he's been acting lately. I catch him all the time just starring at me avidly, then when I notice he blushes looks away. Now this, him having dreams about dad. It's almost weird having him in my bed because normally it would've been me banging of his back begging for him to save me...its no secret, our sad excuse of father figure beat the living shit out of us landing me and Benji in the hospital 3 times and Sarah and Josh once each.
Those were some harsh times and I used to cry a lot. But I always had Benji there to hold me and tell me life was going to be great as soon as the bastard died...the bastard didn't die but that's to Benji he went away... 3 months ago... Ever since then, he's never been the same. At first it was just small things... ignoring at times, avoiding eye contact and always going to every party within a 10 mile radius of the house...he was basically everywhere I want and I thought I was doing something wrong...
Then, he started to avoid his girl friend Jazz. He didn't take her phone calls and always made excuses to skip dates and stuff...he still does that which sucks because I really miss double dates...except the most recent one...
We were at the movies and me and Tanya had just started making out. We were getting really into it when all of a sudden I feel her being shoved away and Benji's kinda in her place. Immediately he looks behind me and asks, "Is that Tony and...not his girl?" I gave him a look. A look that I normally only give chicks at school when there annoying me begging me to go out with them. I never imagined myself giving that look to Benj...never. Anyway, after he discovered it wasn't them he helped Tanya up saying a barely audible apology. I start making out with Tanya again when I hear Jazz in the back round asking Benji if he wanted to take their relationship to the next level...whatever that means... He told her he felt sick and left.
It was weird...but I didn't question it. Now Benji is all over me, hanging around me all the time. It's weird, its like our roles flipped in the past 3 months of something. I'm the strong one now. I kinda like it. Joel and strong in the same sentence usual never comes up. Unless I'm talking to Tanya.
I love Tanya so much. She's so beautiful and nice and cool. She's like and angel sent down from heaven to keep me happy, make up for all the shit god put me through before. I love her more than anything...well, except Benji but that's a different kind of love.
Suddenly Benji moves in my arms snuggling up closer to me... I close my eyes...
I need to go bed.
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