My fathers day was eventful.
All that maters is my dad had a good day. I still feel bad for what happened but he tried to convince me it wasnt my fault and he had fun.
How come everything that happens makes me an asshole or a bitch? I try to plan the movie thing and pay for gas for brian and somehow im an asshole. Then later after chenelle actually showed up at the movie I am a bitch at the very end.
I am standing there and getting yelled at by my sister while my dada and brother attempt to defend me but watch her "passionately" scream at me for brian being pissed off and not coming to the flik.
I couldnt take it. I can not just stand there and let her scream at me when i feel i dont deserve it. I can not yell back on fathers day, that is too brittany-like. So I say "I will meet you at the car dad" and walk away holding in my tears. If only someone could understand why this sucks for me. Why it hurts so much to not wnat to care about my sister anymore.
Someday I may have the strength to explain to open ears.
someday...maybe
How come everything that happens makes me an asshole or a bitch? I try to plan the movie thing and pay for gas for brian and somehow im an asshole. Then later after chenelle actually showed up at the movie I am a bitch at the very end.
I am standing there and getting yelled at by my sister while my dada and brother attempt to defend me but watch her "passionately" scream at me for brian being pissed off and not coming to the flik.
I couldnt take it. I can not just stand there and let her scream at me when i feel i dont deserve it. I can not yell back on fathers day, that is too brittany-like. So I say "I will meet you at the car dad" and walk away holding in my tears. If only someone could understand why this sucks for me. Why it hurts so much to not wnat to care about my sister anymore.
Someday I may have the strength to explain to open ears.
someday...maybe