just in case you missed this in my journal.holly12007April 10 2006, 19:45:06 UTC
yes i know, my timing isn't perfect. But i was tired of listening to you put me and him down, even as i tried to comfort you. When i tell you its hell to break up, you say its not, that your fine, that your strong (implying what, im weak?) and maybe before you tell me what this is about you should read the whole thing. I want to be able to be there for you but its hard to do that when every word out of your mouth is dripping with your feelings of superiority. I sat down, not intending to write anything but ive been feeling like this since december and have tried countless times to say something and i have never been able to, and it just came out. I was hoping you wouldn't read this for awhile, i didnt' think lj was something you looked at very often. I figured i would just let fate step in and that you would read it whenever you were supposed to.
Also, i think you should read it ALL. then tell me what you think of it.
And seriously Rachael I am sorry you two didnt' work. I hate that people can fall out of love, and break peoples hearts. I didn't intend this to hurt you more, i just want you to open your eye's and to stop putting us down. YOu and I do this. We fall out and fall in. I haven't been feeling this friendship for quite some time but i just hoped that maybe i would be able to talk to you about it all sometime but i just never could. I knew that you wouldn't see my point but now it seems, of all times, maybe you could.
Ive put up with the trash you have talked for MONTHS the least you can do is read what i have to say.
PS. there is never a good time to tell someone this.
I hope through all of this, regardless of the state of our friendship, you can realize that things aren't always as they seem, and that you are not in control of everything. Its ok to admit your sad, that breakups are bad, that maybe your not so ok, and not so happy. Yes life goes on and you will get over it all but you don't have to act so strong all the time.
Also, i think you should read it ALL. then tell me what you think of it.
And seriously Rachael I am sorry you two didnt' work. I hate that people can fall out of love, and break peoples hearts. I didn't intend this to hurt you more, i just want you to open your eye's and to stop putting us down. YOu and I do this. We fall out and fall in. I haven't been feeling this friendship for quite some time but i just hoped that maybe i would be able to talk to you about it all sometime but i just never could. I knew that you wouldn't see my point but now it seems, of all times, maybe you could.
Ive put up with the trash you have talked for MONTHS the least you can do is read what i have to say.
PS. there is never a good time to tell someone this.
I hope through all of this, regardless of the state of our friendship, you can realize that things aren't always as they seem, and that you are not in control of everything. Its ok to admit your sad, that breakups are bad, that maybe your not so ok, and not so happy. Yes life goes on and you will get over it all but you don't have to act so strong all the time.
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