timing is everything!
So i decided I am going to tell my parents by Friday which may mean no New years and being the topic on a shit load of family gossip but i guess u get what you deserve. I thought about the Todd situation(although what i did hurts noone but myself!) still todd not telling people is what made it so bad. I can't stand liars and I would hate to be one. See i can't stand living with constant guilt but after i tell people i will be living in constant shame:-( especially because my mother has a huge mouth and loves to gossip. I hate having a big close family sometimes because everything gets around and then i get the lectures and shame for 30 people. We're having a big holiday family party on sunday(even tho we've already had like a million) and its at my house so i might just have to go over to Matts. I wish i could tell them after matt leaves for his trip but i guess before is good too so i have a place to run to now that kristin is gone. today is wednesday so i am going to try to tell them tomorrow but if i chicken out it has to be done by the end of friday. Matt is leaving on new years eve so i really just want to spend more time with him on sunday so i am very bothered by this party...my family has been taking up a shit load of my time with out asking if its ok to make these plans...i kinda had plans with matt most of the time but then i have to break them for my family because even though i would rather spend my time with matt my loyality is to my family. Yesterday matt wanted to come over after we ate christmas dinner but my parents said no because it was christmas. I get it but it would have made my christmas to be with him but i will see him later tonight.
other than that christmas was good...i got a shit load of clothes+jewerly and a bunch of gift cards(100 gas, 200 visa, and like a bunch of urban outfitters ones, i got a garmin navagational system for my car(i think more for my dads peice of mind), i got a bunch of books and dvds(greys season 3! we can now catch erica up! and superbad)....OH and my sister gave me ICE SKAKES! super pumped...and i also got 600 dollars for the camera i bought and books and to put toward horse back riding but i am giving that back to my dad when he finds out the trouble i am in and anything else he wants to take back. Hope everyone else has a lovely christmas<3
other than that christmas was good...i got a shit load of clothes+jewerly and a bunch of gift cards(100 gas, 200 visa, and like a bunch of urban outfitters ones, i got a garmin navagational system for my car(i think more for my dads peice of mind), i got a bunch of books and dvds(greys season 3! we can now catch erica up! and superbad)....OH and my sister gave me ICE SKAKES! super pumped...and i also got 600 dollars for the camera i bought and books and to put toward horse back riding but i am giving that back to my dad when he finds out the trouble i am in and anything else he wants to take back. Hope everyone else has a lovely christmas<3