I Would Do It All The Same
I Would Do It All The Same
Written by Alisa Spector
If I had another chance
To take back those words of glance
And turn back the sands of time
That makes me now recite this rhyme
I would do it all the same
For I cannot avoid your name
Nor wash it down with numbing wine
Nor erase it from my mind
For every word I speak of you
Adds to this delirious mood
I only wish it’d be returned
And make the fire burn, not burned
You seem different now, where are you?
Where’s the one that I once knew?
I see the face, but deep inside,
No matter how hard I try and try,
I can’t find you,
There’s something new,
Hidden in your eyes
And now I finally realize,
The truth behind those downcast eyes
I hear the solemn, waking boom,
Alerting me of my soul’s doom,
Screaming that it was too soon,
For me to reach for the moon
I realize now that he was right,
But I never expected such a plight
For I did not pass into space,
Gravity pulled me down with grace
A gentle hand pushed me away
No matter how I fought to stay
I screamed and whirled,
My hair unfurled
But no sooner did I throw my fist,
Then did I suddenly take the risk,
To grab on to the rocky ledge
And scrape my knees upon the edge,
Raging ocean far below,
Fear ran through me, head to toe
And with the fear that I would slip
I made the move to tighten my grip
But little did I really know,
That in my grasp was fresh, new snow
That melted in my warm embrace
The fragile beauty I defaced
And now my cheeks are stained with rain
From guilt I tried to feed the flame
But only doused the newly tamed
My heart, as well, brutally maimed
I should have known that’s what I’d receive
The broken heart that daily bleeds
And I thought you and I were different
That we could fight these awful currents
These currents we all swim against
Who, to our hearts, do cause offense
Pushing me away from you
And with like force, they push you too
And now I’m sitting here alone
Thinking you’re completely gone
And that my friends are foul foes
To make me think you’d solve my woes
So I sent out a begging plea
That you could come and rescue me
And I could finally break free
From the shackles binding me
But what of my words?
They tied new knots
Over and under as we were taught
Weaving a new and evil plot
One that I knew of not,
To bounce back like a boomerang
And hit my heart and cause this pain
I’m still shooting for that moon
And thus my mind is so consumed
That it will one day bring me back to you
And when the trumpets sound their tune
The boomerang no longer cruel
Is now a needle and a spool
To mend my ever bleeding heart
And make it new with you in part
All that I have lost and still
If I did have another chance
To take back those words of glance
And turn back the sands of time
That makes me now recite this rhyme
I would do it all the same
For I cannot avoid your name
Nor wash it down with numbing wine
Nor erase it from my mind
For every word I speak of you
Adds to this delirious mood
I only wish it’d be returned
And make the fire burn, not burned