Isn'nt this exactly where you like me, I'm exactly where you like me you know
**But I'm afraid that I...well I may have faked it&&&I wouldn't be caught dead in this place**
Well pretty much I've become extremely overwhelmed lately, with everything. It's wierd how my focuses in school have completely changed, and now instead of actually "trying" in those classes that I usually try so hard on, I am completely giving up on them...Now I find myself interested in Pshycology, and Photography more and more than ever before, and even taking a bit of a likeing to Mr. Reeds AP us History class. So i mean i've got all a's in those, and then a c in ap english..eff english..i speak read write and comprehend it. But recently I've pretty much figured out what I want to do with the rest of my life...sure there will be definite changes, because well shit happens, but for the most part, I know what schools I want to go to, and what careers I want to pursue. Pretty much I've got a lot going on now, and people..well all people are pretty much just pissing me off all together. Like I don't know..all the back stabbing, he said shee said shit is just pissing me off. I can't wait to get out of this damned place. It just pisses me off..all of it. This "small town small mind" life, the whole lot of it. I mean sure there are people here that are "nice" or so they seem, and those that are "cool" again or so they seem, but many of them are not people that I would generally aquaint myself with. I don't know. I guess I've become someone that I settles in a way,..and that's not me. I don't settle, I hold everything to high standards...which may also be why I find such huge flaws in everything..cuz' i expect more from..well everything, and everyone..I just expect better from people than they ever have. It's disappointing. I want to be some where with people that hold to standards and don't settle, or think they've found they're life when they haven't seen what else there is to find.
I think I just loathe people..I mean they either...damn i don't feel like explaining this anymore. But pretty much if I've seemed cold lately..apolagies to you...but if you think that I've been odd...god damn deal with the shit. You guys act like you've never been in a rut...I don't feel like i want to be pulled out of it just yet, because the fact of the matter is the one person that can pull me out is currently not around. I miss my old friends dearly more and more as time passes...I miss England..and Ireland, even Wales. I want to just go off to college, and work my ass off to get done what I want to get done. I want to move to california, new york, georgia, pennsylvania, or out of this house..to someplace in st. pete. I'm numb now...I should stop doing a lot of the things that I currently do now. It's my decesion..stop fucking judging me. I don't need your shit. I know you think of me as below you, I know you only call when your plans have fallen through..I don't want to be like you, nor will I ever want to be. It's no wonder people say the things they do. I just want to be left alone by everyone's standard..why can't everything go out the window and I just live with out everyones expectations...FUCK YOU! Dam I hate listening to people talk shit, and people talk shit about other people...BYE.
Well pretty much I've become extremely overwhelmed lately, with everything. It's wierd how my focuses in school have completely changed, and now instead of actually "trying" in those classes that I usually try so hard on, I am completely giving up on them...Now I find myself interested in Pshycology, and Photography more and more than ever before, and even taking a bit of a likeing to Mr. Reeds AP us History class. So i mean i've got all a's in those, and then a c in ap english..eff english..i speak read write and comprehend it. But recently I've pretty much figured out what I want to do with the rest of my life...sure there will be definite changes, because well shit happens, but for the most part, I know what schools I want to go to, and what careers I want to pursue. Pretty much I've got a lot going on now, and people..well all people are pretty much just pissing me off all together. Like I don't know..all the back stabbing, he said shee said shit is just pissing me off. I can't wait to get out of this damned place. It just pisses me off..all of it. This "small town small mind" life, the whole lot of it. I mean sure there are people here that are "nice" or so they seem, and those that are "cool" again or so they seem, but many of them are not people that I would generally aquaint myself with. I don't know. I guess I've become someone that I settles in a way,..and that's not me. I don't settle, I hold everything to high standards...which may also be why I find such huge flaws in everything..cuz' i expect more from..well everything, and everyone..I just expect better from people than they ever have. It's disappointing. I want to be some where with people that hold to standards and don't settle, or think they've found they're life when they haven't seen what else there is to find.
I think I just loathe people..I mean they either...damn i don't feel like explaining this anymore. But pretty much if I've seemed cold lately..apolagies to you...but if you think that I've been odd...god damn deal with the shit. You guys act like you've never been in a rut...I don't feel like i want to be pulled out of it just yet, because the fact of the matter is the one person that can pull me out is currently not around. I miss my old friends dearly more and more as time passes...I miss England..and Ireland, even Wales. I want to just go off to college, and work my ass off to get done what I want to get done. I want to move to california, new york, georgia, pennsylvania, or out of this house..to someplace in st. pete. I'm numb now...I should stop doing a lot of the things that I currently do now. It's my decesion..stop fucking judging me. I don't need your shit. I know you think of me as below you, I know you only call when your plans have fallen through..I don't want to be like you, nor will I ever want to be. It's no wonder people say the things they do. I just want to be left alone by everyone's standard..why can't everything go out the window and I just live with out everyones expectations...FUCK YOU! Dam I hate listening to people talk shit, and people talk shit about other people...BYE.