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today i finished reading a man called blessed. anyone who hasnt read those books really should, its impossible to put them down, and just reading the tale Bright and Dekker weave filled gave me so much encouragement and joy. Pretty weird to come from a historical fiction novel, but then again, it rocks.
ive recently been trying to plan for my future, including next weekend, this summer, next school year, college and from then on. along with all my ap stuff its kinda consumed me. every moment ive just been contemplating what i want to do, and whats realisticly possible within those desires. then it hit me today, that i cant plan anything. i mean i could try to plan, but if im planning for years ahead how could i be open to plans God might have in store. if im planning for my flesh's desires how could i expect to live out the Lords.
i still have plenty of struggles, and a lot of struggling weather i deserve even to bow at God's feet for forgiveness. i feel so unworthy, but i know that he sacrificed his son so i could do so.
Goodnight
ive recently been trying to plan for my future, including next weekend, this summer, next school year, college and from then on. along with all my ap stuff its kinda consumed me. every moment ive just been contemplating what i want to do, and whats realisticly possible within those desires. then it hit me today, that i cant plan anything. i mean i could try to plan, but if im planning for years ahead how could i be open to plans God might have in store. if im planning for my flesh's desires how could i expect to live out the Lords.
i still have plenty of struggles, and a lot of struggling weather i deserve even to bow at God's feet for forgiveness. i feel so unworthy, but i know that he sacrificed his son so i could do so.
Goodnight