Friendships are dead.
Why is it that we do this? Girls fight, say horrible things, stop being friends... and then a month later start all over again like nothing ever happened. I know I am guilty of it, and many many of my friends are. It makes me want to throw in the towel and say "fuck it!" I work at the same job as a girl (Jenell) that I used to be extremly close to. But, I got in a serious relationship, and stopped hanging out with her and another friend as much because they mostly went out and partied, and after time I stopped feeling comfortable hanging out with them, like I was an outsider in my own group of friends. Since then, those two are not friends anymore, but myself and the other friend are friends again. Well, yeah. Anyways. A lot of anger towards each other led to erruptions at work and a lot of hurtful things said from both parts. I told someone something very personal about her out of anger, and that person told our entire work place. Which ended up in her trying to get me fired for anything she could possibly think of. The stupidest shit, seriously. Like, I didn't put the breadsticks in the pan straight. In turn, I started to do the same to her, but only if it was something serious, because I didn't want to look like an idiot. For example, the nacho cheese sauce was 30 degrees below the temperature it was supposed to be. Anyways, it was all stupid. When I quit Rocky's, she went on about how I didn't even put in my 2 weeks, but then a month later, she did the same thing. She is the reason that I was so eager to quit that job, I didn't want to deal with the drama anymore.
So, one of my best friends, and a girl she has been fighting with (and the person I consider unforgivable) are friends again. It pissed me off on all sorts of levels. First thing I thought it "there goes our friendship" because everytime she and this person are friends, we fight. Every single fucking time. This girl and I have said some terrible things to each other, I'll admit. But, she got too personal, and started to put down my family, who she has never even met. Second thing I thought is that this person is going to try to be my friend too, but I don't think she will. I don't think she wants to be my friend, which is fine, becuase I don't want to be hers. Anyways, I mentioned this to someone, and they said that they think Jenell and I will be friends again. Now, this person that I mentioned it to and I have done the "Friends, not friends, friends" dance since the 8th grade. So, people have said the same things about us many, many times... so who would she be to judge if by some act of God that girl and I were friends again?
And basically, to sum this up, friends suck and everyone will stab you in the back at some point, so just expect it and everything will be fine, because at least when it happens, you can know you were right.
So, one of my best friends, and a girl she has been fighting with (and the person I consider unforgivable) are friends again. It pissed me off on all sorts of levels. First thing I thought it "there goes our friendship" because everytime she and this person are friends, we fight. Every single fucking time. This girl and I have said some terrible things to each other, I'll admit. But, she got too personal, and started to put down my family, who she has never even met. Second thing I thought is that this person is going to try to be my friend too, but I don't think she will. I don't think she wants to be my friend, which is fine, becuase I don't want to be hers. Anyways, I mentioned this to someone, and they said that they think Jenell and I will be friends again. Now, this person that I mentioned it to and I have done the "Friends, not friends, friends" dance since the 8th grade. So, people have said the same things about us many, many times... so who would she be to judge if by some act of God that girl and I were friends again?
And basically, to sum this up, friends suck and everyone will stab you in the back at some point, so just expect it and everything will be fine, because at least when it happens, you can know you were right.