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Today was not good...I went to school...got jabbed in the stomach by a basketball and made me feel like I was gonna' throw up....went to WH and my test was postponed until Wednesday....Algebra we had a sub and I had a quarter test...not sure how I did...came home...ate lunch...I'm putting a lot of dots lol. Then I helped my mom with the kidlings and worked on the cover page for my WH project...boring...non of the letters match...long story...Read an e-mail from Allan...My dad tried to poke my ears so that all the...umm this is my edited version...stuff so to speak would come out of this little pocket thing...nevermind...it's gross..you don't want to hear about it..then I ate somewhat of a dinner...a small slice of taco ring...played video games....my brother came up and I said hey look Chris I got past this level....he said...that's nice...and started lecturing me on how everyone was doing something around the house
I hate this...My grades are slipping...It may not show but inside I'm screaming and crying...but I don't think anyone hears me...I wish I had something happy to write about all the time but I don't feel like it...I have the best family in the world and I wouldn't trade them for anything...but I dunno...I'm so different from them...My brother is the smart one my sister is responsible and I'm stuck in the middle...where do I fit in this family...the girl who gets bad grades and doesn't care about her life? I want to succeed and I'm trying really really hard to stay focused...but I get so distracted...like nothing else matters...i feel like there's no hope for me...like it's too late and I'm stuck inside this deep black hole and I can't get out of it....not that I'm depressed or anything...but I disappointed myself because I said I was really going to try...and I didn't...otherwise I'd be studying for my WH test and working on my project and studying even though I don't have to...I always feel like I'm going to get in trouble for something all the time...why can't I be that sweet innocent child that was nice to everyone anymore? Why can't I be my mom's angel? howcome I feel like this? I don't even know how to describe how I feel...It's...I don't even know how to explain it or what to explain...Somehow I'm going to make things right...I don't know how and I don't know when. but it's going to happen...
Sam
I hate this...My grades are slipping...It may not show but inside I'm screaming and crying...but I don't think anyone hears me...I wish I had something happy to write about all the time but I don't feel like it...I have the best family in the world and I wouldn't trade them for anything...but I dunno...I'm so different from them...My brother is the smart one my sister is responsible and I'm stuck in the middle...where do I fit in this family...the girl who gets bad grades and doesn't care about her life? I want to succeed and I'm trying really really hard to stay focused...but I get so distracted...like nothing else matters...i feel like there's no hope for me...like it's too late and I'm stuck inside this deep black hole and I can't get out of it....not that I'm depressed or anything...but I disappointed myself because I said I was really going to try...and I didn't...otherwise I'd be studying for my WH test and working on my project and studying even though I don't have to...I always feel like I'm going to get in trouble for something all the time...why can't I be that sweet innocent child that was nice to everyone anymore? Why can't I be my mom's angel? howcome I feel like this? I don't even know how to describe how I feel...It's...I don't even know how to explain it or what to explain...Somehow I'm going to make things right...I don't know how and I don't know when. but it's going to happen...
Sam