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Today was ok. I went to church. Then things got....how do u say....rough...I came home did some homework and then I went to Alyssa's. We giggled like always but I don't feel as if she's telling me everything. I mean not that I'm mad but she id dunno it's hard to explain. I've been so pressured with school lately and my parents have been nagging me on my homework and I know it's my fault for not keeping up, but now because of that mistake they expect me to do everything at once. I can't. I don't know how I fell anymore. This kid is bugging me in school and I know he's just trying to flirt with me but I can't take it! just recently I started thinking about when me and trevor were still dating. Those were some of the best times of my life. I felt like someone cared and that he wanted me. Now he thinks I'm a door mat and that he can just walk all over me and not expect me to say anything. My dad started joking me tonight on how I would never get a car just because I didn't hang up my dress. I mean...I'm just so confused. I don't even remember just being me anymore. I don't remember what being a normal teenager is like. I want to remember so desperately. I just can't...I don't have anything that keeps my mind off of things. I can't go for a real bikeride around the neighborhood cuz my mom won't let me ride but up and down the sidewalk on the other side of the street or unless my brother's with me nowhere else. Well I could write fo hours but it's getting late and I have school tomorrow.