I'm going insane .....and I can't sleep!!!
nah I'm not really going insane again....I'm just having trouble sleeping again....
anyway had another one of my reoccurring dreams ...(not for the tame and understand I'm not totally *there* all the time when I'm awake so you can figure my dreams are kinda strange)..you have been warned...this one I call The Hallway basically it starts with my dream self (its me only I'm wearing black knee high combat boots, black panties, black bra, and this black button up silk bathrobe shirt thing and its cool cause I have all the tattoos I'm planning on getting ..) standing at the end of this long ass dark hall way ....the walls all look like they are stained red and its all foggy....anyway I get that feeling like someone is behind me and instead of turning around like I would do in real life I already know that whatevers behind me is bad news.....so I take off ...and up until this point everything is in real time but once I start to run everything goes slow mo...at one point I'm running like Jim Carey in that one part of Ace Ventura 2 with my arms out stretched like Jesus on the cross....the middle buttons are the only ones buttoned up and my boobs are bouncing (nicely I might add) and for some reason the floor is wet but I don't slip....I can feel the heat off the body chasing me ....that presents makes me feel so small ....and just as I'm about to hit the door there is a hand around the back of my neck....these long fingers wrap around my neck not hard but like this hand is holding a baby bird ...just enough pressure to make me stop...there are lips on my ear murmuring something I don't understand .....he (I know its a he by what happens in alil bit) keeps that hand on my neck turning me slowly away from the door until I'm pushed up against the wall....its cold and damp just like his hand that's stroking down my back....I try to cry out to let me go and trying to let 1000 words fly but its like my voice is lead in my chest ....the hand slips up to my hair and his teeth are on my neck.....lightly at first ...like a playful lover ....then harder....turning into a hungry animal .....I know the skin has broken in a few places on my neck and shoulder but nothing compares to the fear of hearing fabric rip.....I know he isn't going to stop ....and just when I think his fingers are going to enter me he picks me up by the hair and my leg and throws me thru the door...it feels like I'm flying only I end up back against the wall again.....this time I'm facing him but the light is all wrong ....I can see but I can't its like a shadow always falls across his features...he kisses me and bites into my bottom lip so now my chest is being covered in my own blood ....I can feel that cold calloused hand on my breasts slowly moving to my pussy ....I'm shaking uncontrollably and the only warmth is his breath .....he pushes his body against mine as his fat cold fingers part my lips and enter me...I'm dry as a bone and his fingers feel like sandpaper....I can feel my flesh tear....like he is trying to rip something out of me....but then all of a sudden I'm centered ....I know this is happening but I can sense other things....he smells like honeysuckle and his clothes are so soft....I can make out one crystal clear blue eye....the other is hidden by his hair .....the world tilts and we are laying on the wall instead of standing ....he has got my legs pinned with his knees and he is still fingering me but now due to the blood I'm not so dry.....my lip is still bleeding cause it is running into my ears now...one of his other fingers finds my ass hole and without any warning he plunges in ...this new pain is only registered for a moment...I try to squirm away but he still has my legs pinned and he just starts licking my eye....I'm terrified he is going to bite and blind me ....but then just like that he is gone....at this point everything goes back to real time and I'm dressed (same outfit and standing in front of the door ....sometimes I wake up at this point other times I open the door....if I open the door I see what is happening to me and he still has the me from before pinned to the floor only now he isn't dressed ....I still have whats left of the robe and the boots....The other me from the door is walking around this whole horror show in big circles ....he has me by the neck again with one hand the other hand is holding my left leg high in the air and his mammoth cock is ramming into me ...his cock is I dunno like glass I can see it from where I'm walking but its a glittery shining glow...of course the me on the floor feels nothing but pain...the me walking around feels nothing but pleasure ....He looks at the me walking around and I can see that blue blue eye again and I know I can stop this ....he is vulnerable at that moment but the pleasure is too great ...it feels like I'm on fire but in that way that fire can be so cold....feels like every part of my body is about to cum....so I'm letting one version of myself be violated in the worst way and I'm letting it keep happening when I could stop it cause the orgasm is going to be to great for the me walking around....His hand leaves my neck only to grab my other leg so he can thrust harder...As I keep walking I can feel the pressure of his glowing cock inside me like a phantom ....he pushes my legs up to my chest and then his cock is gone and with a hard thrust he is inside my very tender ass....this knocks the walking me to the floor ....and I can't stop myself my fingers are on my clit in an instant....but the second I touch that little pearl of flesh that huge man explodes in a puff of smoke and both me's are left laying there....explain that..of course you have to understand I've been having this dream in one way or another for a long time and some points always change while others don't but this is a combined version of the last 4 or so times I've had this dream...the ending is new though thats from this AM....
Anyway I guess I'm going to hit the bed seems I have a trip to the vet tomorrow ...Jeff is really sick and I don't know what to do....
EDIT: did a silly quiz..or 2..I'll update for real in a day or so I just need sometime off...
I am 81% evil.
Wow! I'm almost pure evil! Sin is my way of life. If there is a hell I have packed my bags for the trip.
Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com
Your Porn Star Name is: Sweetest Sin
Get your own Porn Star Name
Who cares if we cheat on each other all the time!! IT'S SPIKE!!!!
anyway had another one of my reoccurring dreams ...(not for the tame and understand I'm not totally *there* all the time when I'm awake so you can figure my dreams are kinda strange)..you have been warned...this one I call The Hallway basically it starts with my dream self (its me only I'm wearing black knee high combat boots, black panties, black bra, and this black button up silk bathrobe shirt thing and its cool cause I have all the tattoos I'm planning on getting ..) standing at the end of this long ass dark hall way ....the walls all look like they are stained red and its all foggy....anyway I get that feeling like someone is behind me and instead of turning around like I would do in real life I already know that whatevers behind me is bad news.....so I take off ...and up until this point everything is in real time but once I start to run everything goes slow mo...at one point I'm running like Jim Carey in that one part of Ace Ventura 2 with my arms out stretched like Jesus on the cross....the middle buttons are the only ones buttoned up and my boobs are bouncing (nicely I might add) and for some reason the floor is wet but I don't slip....I can feel the heat off the body chasing me ....that presents makes me feel so small ....and just as I'm about to hit the door there is a hand around the back of my neck....these long fingers wrap around my neck not hard but like this hand is holding a baby bird ...just enough pressure to make me stop...there are lips on my ear murmuring something I don't understand .....he (I know its a he by what happens in alil bit) keeps that hand on my neck turning me slowly away from the door until I'm pushed up against the wall....its cold and damp just like his hand that's stroking down my back....I try to cry out to let me go and trying to let 1000 words fly but its like my voice is lead in my chest ....the hand slips up to my hair and his teeth are on my neck.....lightly at first ...like a playful lover ....then harder....turning into a hungry animal .....I know the skin has broken in a few places on my neck and shoulder but nothing compares to the fear of hearing fabric rip.....I know he isn't going to stop ....and just when I think his fingers are going to enter me he picks me up by the hair and my leg and throws me thru the door...it feels like I'm flying only I end up back against the wall again.....this time I'm facing him but the light is all wrong ....I can see but I can't its like a shadow always falls across his features...he kisses me and bites into my bottom lip so now my chest is being covered in my own blood ....I can feel that cold calloused hand on my breasts slowly moving to my pussy ....I'm shaking uncontrollably and the only warmth is his breath .....he pushes his body against mine as his fat cold fingers part my lips and enter me...I'm dry as a bone and his fingers feel like sandpaper....I can feel my flesh tear....like he is trying to rip something out of me....but then all of a sudden I'm centered ....I know this is happening but I can sense other things....he smells like honeysuckle and his clothes are so soft....I can make out one crystal clear blue eye....the other is hidden by his hair .....the world tilts and we are laying on the wall instead of standing ....he has got my legs pinned with his knees and he is still fingering me but now due to the blood I'm not so dry.....my lip is still bleeding cause it is running into my ears now...one of his other fingers finds my ass hole and without any warning he plunges in ...this new pain is only registered for a moment...I try to squirm away but he still has my legs pinned and he just starts licking my eye....I'm terrified he is going to bite and blind me ....but then just like that he is gone....at this point everything goes back to real time and I'm dressed (same outfit and standing in front of the door ....sometimes I wake up at this point other times I open the door....if I open the door I see what is happening to me and he still has the me from before pinned to the floor only now he isn't dressed ....I still have whats left of the robe and the boots....The other me from the door is walking around this whole horror show in big circles ....he has me by the neck again with one hand the other hand is holding my left leg high in the air and his mammoth cock is ramming into me ...his cock is I dunno like glass I can see it from where I'm walking but its a glittery shining glow...of course the me on the floor feels nothing but pain...the me walking around feels nothing but pleasure ....He looks at the me walking around and I can see that blue blue eye again and I know I can stop this ....he is vulnerable at that moment but the pleasure is too great ...it feels like I'm on fire but in that way that fire can be so cold....feels like every part of my body is about to cum....so I'm letting one version of myself be violated in the worst way and I'm letting it keep happening when I could stop it cause the orgasm is going to be to great for the me walking around....His hand leaves my neck only to grab my other leg so he can thrust harder...As I keep walking I can feel the pressure of his glowing cock inside me like a phantom ....he pushes my legs up to my chest and then his cock is gone and with a hard thrust he is inside my very tender ass....this knocks the walking me to the floor ....and I can't stop myself my fingers are on my clit in an instant....but the second I touch that little pearl of flesh that huge man explodes in a puff of smoke and both me's are left laying there....explain that..of course you have to understand I've been having this dream in one way or another for a long time and some points always change while others don't but this is a combined version of the last 4 or so times I've had this dream...the ending is new though thats from this AM....
Anyway I guess I'm going to hit the bed seems I have a trip to the vet tomorrow ...Jeff is really sick and I don't know what to do....
EDIT: did a silly quiz..or 2..I'll update for real in a day or so I just need sometime off...
I am 81% evil.
Wow! I'm almost pure evil! Sin is my way of life. If there is a hell I have packed my bags for the trip.
Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com
Your Porn Star Name is: Sweetest Sin
Get your own Porn Star Name
Who cares if we cheat on each other all the time!! IT'S SPIKE!!!!