RL Problems
Okay so i'm going to vent here because i really want to pour out my soul today. If I post anywhere else it will cause a upstir with my family and close friends. So today I guess I hit my breaking point at work. I was upset since friday after work but today just shook me even more. So Friday I was turned down for a supervisor position that some of my managers and co-workers told me to sign up for. I wanted to see if I could get the job, even if i really didn't want it. But Friday when they told me the reason I didn't get it, that was what made me mad and upset. They said it was because I didn't want to work Sundays. Sundays are my church days, it is something I hold dearly. Even if I said everything else is open. That's not fair!! Just one day and my whole interview and chance flies out the window. WTF!!! (forgive my language) My other co-worker even said she could only work mornings and she still gets the job. It's so stupid. But it just got to me, the reason alone was just stupid. I work super hard, stayed the longest to get everything done for this job, for the mangers, and yet...they don't even recognize it!! It hurts!! Always being the doormat, the stepping stone to someone else's sucess. It's the worst feeling ever...I feel even more stupid for letting it get to me. For this long. I mean I thought I was okay. Then my co-workers started talking about it. They kept saying I deserve it, and they are stupid, you work the hardest. That just made me think about it again. Then I started crying because it is unfair. Up top of that the hostile co-workers I work with start fighting and telling me off because she was made at my other co-worker added to the tears. It's not my problem!! Anyway I just had to vent here. Thanks for reading if you do!