AwW hEcK..
I shouldn*t care but I do. When someone is taken out of my life, whoever it is, it feels wrong. Was he put into my life to make me realize what I was doing wrong? There*s always a reason.. and I don*t know what that reason is... but whatever it was, he*s gone. Is that good or bad? Most people would say good.. but I*m not so sure. What if I didn*t do my part? What if I didn*t do what God put him in my life to do? What if I let God down? I know He*ll forgive me, but I*ve still done something wrong. It*s like a blood stain on a white shirt.. yeah you can bleach it out but if you took a black light to it you could still see it.... WHY AM I WORRYING LIKE THIS? God doesn*t want me to worry... If I let God down, He*ll undertsand.. that*s His job. I*ve made plenty of mistakes.. He knows that. I*m ready to confess... READY. It*ll be so much easier with him gone..