ugh new years?
new years has come and gone. and unlike many people on here, im not particularly happy about it.
a new year brings a new day. a new day brings a chance to start over. starting over means change. and you all know how bad i am at change.
im so afraid to let go of last year. it was one of the best years of my life (except towards the end) and i dont want to lose sight of that. i dont want to start over, i want to keep pursuing those same dreams of last year. i feel like the pressures of "starting anew" are so big and i just dont want to.
I'm afraid of the past.
I'm afraid of the future.
I'm afraid of you.
I'm afraid of me.
i wish life was easy.
plus my relationship issues are ughhhhh not much better.
my love life is like a fucking tangled ball of string
and sometimes i feel like my friends are pushing me away.
my inner turmoil is almost too much to handle at times. i dont know where to go or what to do next. i wish i was back in summer '06. that was the best time of my life. i was happy then.
a new year brings a new day. a new day brings a chance to start over. starting over means change. and you all know how bad i am at change.
im so afraid to let go of last year. it was one of the best years of my life (except towards the end) and i dont want to lose sight of that. i dont want to start over, i want to keep pursuing those same dreams of last year. i feel like the pressures of "starting anew" are so big and i just dont want to.
I'm afraid of the past.
I'm afraid of the future.
I'm afraid of you.
I'm afraid of me.
i wish life was easy.
plus my relationship issues are ughhhhh not much better.
my love life is like a fucking tangled ball of string
and sometimes i feel like my friends are pushing me away.
my inner turmoil is almost too much to handle at times. i dont know where to go or what to do next. i wish i was back in summer '06. that was the best time of my life. i was happy then.